today

[floor_sitter]

I didn't go to work today. Got up late - despite waking at 6:30, just lie there thinking. And felt a bit faint when I did get up. And it's fairly pointless, because I just sit at my desk and think about Jon, or surf the web to avoid thinking. Mathematics is not being done

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[wingedmessenger]

You could just ignore your mother's call, sounds like you dont need that right now.

Have you phoned his parents back? What did they want? Dont stress about writing the letter, give it time.

It sounds like losing Jon has majorly impacted on you, have you thought about getting some counselling?

[floor_sitter]

Thanks.

Jon's parents rang again. To say thanks for the cake (I had baked them a banana loaf and took it down with me) and to ask for the address of the church he & I went to in Edinburgh and to see how I was. I think it's really hard for them now that all the visitors have gone and the funeral is past and they are just faced with the rest of life to live without him.

Mum rang. I said I wanted to be at my own church this Sunday, so she agreed there wasn't much point my visiting this weekend, maybe next. The hospital say she has gall stones and will need her gall bladder removed.

Counselling - I don't think so. Talking therapy people I've encountered in the past have been so patronising and generally just irritate the hell out of me.

[wingedmessenger]

Thats good that you dont have to go to your mums. Pressure off.

Its nice that they rang you, I hope it helps you to speak to them and isnt just another stress to add to the list.

You're right, once the funeral is over people disappear, thats when you need people the most.

Counselling - sorry, I was just trying to help because I know from having trained with them Cruse are brilliant.

[floor_sitter]

Yeah, it is nice that Jon's folks are staying in touch. I think it means that although Jon wasn't the best at staying in touch after we moved, they are aware of how close our friendship was.

No sorry needed re counselling. I probably should be more open to that sort of thing, it's just that the clinical psychology people in Edinburgh were so utterly crap. But yeah I know Cruse are good -- used to suggest them quite often when I was a helpline volunteer.

That's a thing to make my mind up on over the summer, actually: continue OU (but find a course that's 30pts not 60)? Or find voluntary work?

I always know you are trying to help, and that means a lot. No need to be afraid of saying the "wrong" thing.