I'm sorry for seeing you...I'm sorry for looking into your eyes...I'm sorry for becoming your friend...I'm sorry for being there when you needed someone the most...I'm sorry for seeing who you really are...I'm sorry that I look at the sky everynight wishing you were mine...But most of all...I'm sorry for my heart that I fell so deeply in love with

i don't need to love you.
tell me what to do.
tell me what to say...

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wondering about the future.
never put me down.
i've been waiting all my life.
not a day too soon.
keep it away.
chop chop chop.
let me show you a trace.
run run run.
run.

sometimes black. someone's blue.
drink.
a bottle.
or two.
waiting for a decision.
waiting for you.
get back.
soon.

swell weekend.
friday. took out the trash [so to speak]. 3 down, 0 to go. job completion - satisfactory.
saturday. i've lived and breathed on my own now for twenty-six years (too many if you ask me).
today. waking up is easy to do. shower & breakfast with cute boy. puppy school. wii fun. factory girl...

remy starts puppy school this afternoon.
needless to say, i am not looking forward to the shame & humiliation.
when it's just the two of us she behaves quite well -- but the moment another living, breathing organism is tossed into the equation, things become unruly.
see also: disorderly. hectic. turbulent.

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i'll take the dream i had last night
and put it in my freezer,
so someday long and far away
when i'm an old grey geezer,
i'll take it out and thaw it out,
this lovely dream i've frozen,
and boil it up and sit me down
and dip my old cold toes in.

dear journal.
when you reappear i see nothing but booze, flashing lights, and bombs going off in my head.

take one for the team she says.
take one for me she waves.

this was a terrible mistake i say.
this was my mistake.
again.

over and out.