Strike 2

[flowdeborah]

 Oh girls,  It hurts to be me right now.   online dating just isn't  all that much fun for me.  So I'm turning to you to clear me hear and process the pain.  It really hurts to be me today.  Brief Bev blew me off after one outing to the zoo and it did not feel good.  But there was really nothing there and so while it was not a happy feeling, it was

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Re: Do you need a hug? *HUGGING* (see my userpic)

[flowdeborah]

I need lots of hugs and probably a big cry too. why? Why would she play with me this way. Really hard right now. My phone alarm just went off to remind me that it is her birthday today. That bites! Last night she was talking about thanks giving. Saturday it was a camping trip. She really made me believe she wanted to go slowly into the future with me. At least try, maybe she is bipolar

Re: Do you need a hug? *HUGGING* (see my userpic)

[flowdeborah]

Thank you so much. It really hurts. I want to call her, chase her, ask her why, WHY, WHY WOULD SHE DO THIS TO ME! But that is all bad. It makes me weak, well I am weak. Maybe she is just a power hunger mean girl, but Still IT IS crushing. We talked about everything and she promised to always talk. she said I could be myself and she would let me know if she got uncomfortable. I thought she meant she would say something and talk it out with me. I DID NOT know she meant she would throw me away the second she felt the first flutter of discomfort. Tell me not to chase her. She can't be worth it, but I want the person she was last week, Saturday and Sunday morning back.

[sapphicwarrior]

That really sucks what happened to you.
I don't have experience with online dating, but I do know what it feels like when someone you really really like ends it with a text message after promising you more...
If she dumps you this way, without any real explanation and without being honest to you, then in my opinion, she's not worth it.
Hope you have better luck next time.

[flowdeborah]

Thanks. You are right. I deserve better. But I don't want to do it again, it hurts. Opening up is not easy and then she hurt me. really hurt me.

[seabookmonger]

I'm sorry to hear this. Dating is tough and what happened to you could have happened with someone you met in RL too IMHOP. I'm hoping for a better experience for you with a more honest person.

[flowdeborah]

Thanks. It still hurts but I think mostly it was just such a huge slap in the face. I was spinning most of yesterday. But you are right, people can be deceptive no matter where you meet them.

[flowdeborah]

Thanks. Reaching out is always scary for me. But I want happiness. I'll just get up and keep going, my girl is out there and I am going to find her.

[i_see_leaves]

How are you doing now? Hope it hurts a little less. The way she treated you was disrespectful and just way outta line, im at a loss for words... It's very scary to put your heart on the line, or in the line of fire, and you're very brave to keep trying. I know how it can hurt, and it's made me a cynic, but really, reaching out is the only way you're gonna find the girl who will soothe your weary soul:)

[flowdeborah]

Aw, thanks sweets. I am much better now. Her loss and a good lesson for me as well. Just because I'm "feelin' it" and she is saying all the right things doesn't mean she is not really an ass. Men do not have a corner on that market.
I'm still looking, my girl is out there and I am willing to search through the entire pond of frogs to find her.
Thanks for taking the adventure with me.