so this is the last entry from this sn... I have created a new account xxmy_wishxx. For now it is public, but I may decide to change my mind.

add me, and I'll be sure to add you back

I'm starting over with a brand new journal.... a clean sheet of paper to start a new chapter of my life.

-nik

I'm happy.

I really am.

However, I can't stop crying.

I'm fine until I start to think.

I'm so confused.

Somebody... anybody... help me.

I don't care what anyone has to say about this but....

I seriously have the best boyfriend in the entire world. I don't care if he doesn't always want to cuddle with me or if he's not always up for a kiss. I don't care if all we can do is hug this week because he's sick and I honestly don't care if I end up with what he has.... I don't care about ( Read more... )

I'm happy.

Probably the happiest anybody has seen me in months.

I had the most amazing time last week.

Seriously.

This trip has brought me closer to David's family which is really cool. I always wanted to be open with them but I always held back because I didn't know how they would react towards the real me. I feel stupid for worrying so ( Read more... )

This will be my last entry for awhile.

I'll be leaving early in the morning for Parris Island, SC.

When I return I will have my gorgeous Marine in my arms for the first time in THREE months. Aahh it's gonna be great! As most of you know, when we get home, a lot of my time will be spent with him, but I promise not to forget about all of my ( Read more... )

Looking back on all that has happened today, I realize just how sad it has been. As much as I want to cry and feel horrible, I can't. This smile on my face hasn't left. It may have disappeared for a few minutes, but didn't stay away for long. I guess, I'm truly happy. I'm not letting anything bring me down no matter how sad or disappointing it may ( Read more... )

I've been keeping myself busy the past couple of weeks because it makes things easier. Time passes by a lot faster when I'm not just sitting around thinking. Four more weeks till I'm in his arms again ( Read more... )

I found this poem last night...

I wonder how I was able to write something like this, when at the time I wasn't in any kind of relationship?...

I hate some of the lines but I refuse to change them!

Love Song Unwritten
Nicole Childs
May 2002Where I stand I feel so unprotected ( Read more... )

the end.

Don't see the purpose in writing in this LJ anymore.

Geoff's more pissed off than I am, but it's ok.

Whoever you are reading this, leaving anonymous comments, thanks for making me feel special. I mean the more you respond, the more you waste your time with me on your mind.

I'm done.

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