Fuck! I don't know what or how to write it so I guess FUCK will work.
Again....
FUCK!

ever have a dream of a certain someone, and before the dream have no feelings for them what so ever but then after the dream have a mad crush on them? Well I did last night! 
If you've seen firefly, i think thats what its called,  the capiton from that show. I had a dream that we were an item and now I have a huge fat crush on him. hahahahaha. 
Other ( Read more... )

Uh! I am so tired of having to get up two or three times through out the night. I am hoping to rid him of this terrible habbit this next week. Hoping.

Uh, I have felt like such a fat cow lately. I want to be skinny again. I'm really slipping back into my bad eating habits. I binged and purged twice today, and plus on top of that took two fiber tablets and three colon cleanse pills. Part of my wants to get help but the other part of me doesn't want to get help because then I probably wouldn't lose ( Read more... )

I find my self sinking back into depression and I don't know if I will be able to dig my self out again ( Read more... )

I really hate people. Only one of my friends called and wished me a happy birthday. That was Josh, the one friend I can always count on. Everyone else just spread rumors around about me instead. What lovely friends.
FUCK 'EM ALL! 

People really piss me off. 
Screw you human race!

Well last night was pretty rockin, haha. Got a little drunk with Dustin, played some beer pong. didnt make it through a whole round cause I was feelin sick. I'm such a pansy. And plus I hadn't eatin since 11 that morning so, and watche the movie equlibrium. Was interesting the parts I was actually paying attention to. All and all it was was a ( Read more... )

Yesterday was the first time I have drank alcohol in a year and a half. I mean it was only a little bit. Just a couple drinks of vanilla cream soda with rum in it. But that is crazy. I cant say I havnt drank in over a year and a half anymore. I was so proud to be able to say that. Oh well would have been ruin by this next coming week end anyways. I ( Read more... )

I ordered a few books. DnD books. Dungeon masters guide because our DM is leaving for texas in less than a week and a half and I think it could be fun. Ordered the players handbook and then the monster manual. All 2nd edition cause thats what my friends play so. And if I dont end up playing more than just this campain then not a big loss because ( Read more... )