cries deepen within my soul
i can hardly keep contol
you are my only salvation
but where did you go?

for the person whom I will never please ( Read more... )

so.... it has been a while since i updated and some good and bad things have happened. the bad stuff is that i had to go to the hospital a few days ago cause i woke up at about 11pm and started shaking violently and couldnt stop until about 12:30am by 11:30 my parents took me to the hospital. then i spent like 4 hours at the hospital getting tests ( Read more... )

today wasnt that bad of a day. i went out to the lake with my brother, mike, andy, and carson. it was pretty fun, and the water was actually warm! there was some big waves and threw us into the rocks tho, that sort of sucked. i slit my toe open from the rocks and boy did that thing bleed like a mother! but it was still fun ( Read more... )

you know i try so fucking hard all the time to please them...but you know what...whatever i do, it always in never good enough, or they always see the bad in everything. i do my chores, i keep my room clean, i get up on time, i am almost never late, and i try my hardest at just about everything...but is that good enough?? no! it is never good ( Read more... )

crying bloody tears...

so today was the first official day of band camp... i was ok, we only got 2 new freshmen and like 7 squad leaders...not an even ratio. travis and i went to the $.99 store and got some stuff for our sections, it was fun...and then we got stickers for our cars and put them on. so everything went ok today...being back in the band room reminds me of a ( Read more... )

so today was the first day of band camp...or leadership camp. it ok i guess...i am sort of excited. the flute section is getting like 10 new freshmen...ugg ( Read more... )

today would be the perfect day to get waisted!

ugg...going to cali for 4 days with my family! HELP ME!!!! people please call me and save me from my missory!