It's been a long time...

[fluxofconflict]

I've neglected posting for a very long time. Tonight I am in need of it, however

Comments

[helixaspersa]

Oh dear. Sorry to hear this. Your opening reminds me of Tennyson (as in: Break, break, break . . .) which is a great poem about sadness, though I don't suppose that helps

[fluxofconflict]

"Break, Break, Break ..." provided a lovely little moment of empathy (not the right word, I'm sure) for me, and for that I'm appreciative. Your advice certainly hits home, and you've given me a little fuel, i think, for next term. I've heaped up the teaching assistant responsibilities as well, since it's remarkably rewarding, pushing me to do better in my own work, as well as removing a little of my paycheck guilt.

[helixaspersa]

Good. Yes, I find teaching invigorating too; I think the performative aspect of it helps a lot - once you're forced to rise to the occasion and really engage it often sparks other ideas and gets things going, providing you're not having to do so much that it's completely enervating.

[helixaspersa]

By the way, I have just noticed that you have 'Persius' as one of your interests, which is hugely cool of you. (I am trying to write something on Persius and Donne at the moment, he was much more read in the 1590s than he is now.)

[fluxofconflict]

I do love Persius, but I rarely, sadly, have time for him. Might you have some sort of device like msn?

[fluxofconflict]

Although, if you're trying to write, I should not, and will not distract you.

[helixaspersa]

Well I've never actually done MSN, but it can't be that complicated - is it straighforward to sign up? I'm on a MacBook if that makes any difference. I'm going to bed now (nearly 1 am here), but let's try tomorrow if you'd like to - I'll be online probably till around 6pm here, and no doubt a good deal later on Thursday.

[anonymous]

I'm sorry you sound so miserable. Typing is therapeutic, true, but you should really make an effort to make positive changes in your life. You do not have to fix everything all at once. You like to make lists of your faults and you make them often. Perhaps you could target one point and work on that. There is no point beating yourself up about who you think you are, and you shouldn't try to take on everything at once. Still, you should make a change that will make you feel good about yourself, and you should start now. Good Luck.

[fluxofconflict]

Thanks for the advice, who is this?