God, when I look back....holy hell, how can so much change in a span of a few years?

How can I change so much?

I feel so old typing in this box.

It feels so...empty.

he's going to marry her.

i feel cheated, betrayed by god.

back and forth.

i look at your picture on my desk, and i smile at you.

school is ti

(unsaved draft.)

i miss the shit out of you,
and you disappearing right now...god.

i am too young to have to worry about this bullshit.
i am falling apart.

fact: i had to deactivate my facebook account because it was making me depressed.

so here i am.

i'm going to make a tumblr, because livejournal makes me depressed, too.

so i guess i shouldn't have said "here i am"

because i'll probably never write in this again.

so, that's that, i guess.

my life is turning into a really awful tv show.

anyhow, the conundrum of 2009 is a distant roar.

i didn't know so much bullshit could go on in such a short span of time.

the world is towering over me, too tall and menacing and
thoroughly unromantic.

go back to sleep.
in a minute.

i just loved the way your voice sounded when you said it.

it's laughable.

almost.

do not fall in love

with your best friend.

breakupwithherbreakupwithherbreakupwithherbreakupwithher.

i'm no homewrecker.

but a girl can dream.