i woke up today only to find that you left without saying goodbye.

and then i realized that it didn't matter.

and that promises were merely out of convenience.

and that you've broken them before,

so why not keep it up?

i make a real mess out of things ( Read more... )

rather than a muddled post ( Read more... )

someone is going to get hurt.

why do i always do this?

oh, please,
don't let me fuck this up.
please,
let this be something that
i don't want to fuck up.

i'm trying, here. with both of you.
i just want to make it right,
i just want to make it better.

really,
if there is one thing i've learned
in the past few months
its that people are
entirely
fucking
fickle.

so, that's awesome.

please,
get out of my head.

jesus fucking christ.

i cannot handle all of this.

you read my message,
and you thought about me all day.
you realized were wrong.
you came running into
my work tonight
in that buttondown
to tell me so.

this won't happen,
as life is not a movie
and neither were we.

but i still dressed nice.

in time;
somewhere out there.
i am walking outside
alive, and
into the arms
of the one
who knew my heart.

in dreams,
i'll find you.