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bad news
So, on the 6th i was laid off...from the job that i thought i was really gonna go somewhere. not even asked if i would do part time, pay cut, just let go...that was such a blow, i dont know what im gonna do, i have been lookin for an apartment, but thats not happening anymore...i think im gonna move back to cali, i havent decided if im gonna live ( Read more... ) -
First Session
Today i had my first counseling session. My therapist's name is Sharlene, she's pretty cool, she's definitely not like my last two. she gets my whole religious stand, and knows that i was reluctant to come in, but that I'm really sick of getting back to this point every few months! she said its a severe depression and that she would recommend anti- ( Read more... ) -
lets make this a good one, shall we?
hey there, so good news....hmmmm, lol well i start therapy on Monday! woo-hoo! : / well i need it! i get to go see my dad and step-mom in April, i'm soooo excited, i really cant wait, i always have so much fun there, always puts me back in perspective, most of the time, either that or it just lets me forget reality! but really though, they have ( Read more... ) -
lets get it started, shall we?
so its been awhile, once again! but i guess this entry isn't goin to be so bad! well i spent the weekend with my mom, she flew in for meetings but spent the weekend before with me! that was really chill, we stayed at the Hilton! Nice! Anyway, i got my new computer the other day, because my last one died LAME! so things at home are pretty much the ( Read more... ) -
what do u say...fuck 'em or fuck 'em all
Fuck it all right...seriously all u fuckin serial bad relationship types leave me the fuck alone...i dont wanna give u money, i dont want to make u better person...leave me THE FUCK ALONE!! i dont like u anymore, i dont want to be w u, maybe when i was in high school, when i was on drugs. but not anymore. i want life, not you, i dont want death, i ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Secret Crush
if you know that they are single, its better to spill the beans, if they have someone else, keep your mouth shut or ur gonna get hurt
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lately
its been a long time since ive written...things have been bad, its seems i have only written about the bad times in my last entries. this one isnt any different. im falling back into it again. its like something bad happens, i do something drastic, and then sit on it for a year. im really fuckin down. ive been thinking and dreaming every night of ( Read more... ) -
pretty pathetic
....I Just Want To Be Loved....
i just want to be beautiful, to be needed, i want to have significance. i wonder more often than not, if there is anything besides my looks that i have to offer...are my looks my best quality? after everything thats happened in my life, is that all i have amounted to?? some "hot chick"? this all makes me feel ( Read more... ) -
so so so so so
it has been a while since i have written, thats for sure! i guess, im just going to update by giving the basic events in the last couple of months.
to start, that whole "girl" thing didnt really work out, we are still friends, but nothing more! we "were together" for about 8 months.....never ever again! i think it was just a phase, me just ( Read more... )
