So yeah, havent done much of anything except working, I worked a 9-7 today...kinda proud of myself lol...but yeah...I should be working the same tomorow..... made a good $70 just today alone....so I'm happy with that.... other than that... we got slow and Millie and I sat down for a short while and all I could think about was bobby...and the day he ( Read more... )

Well I go back to work tomorow... that'll be fun...atleast its money I guess... kinda "blah" lately... I dunno...guess thats it....

I cant even remember what I've been doign so Papparently nothing important..on average I get about 5 er 6 hours of sleep a night...and last night I think was the worst...I kept having dreams of bobby again...I dont know what to do anymore, I cant get him out of my head and its driving me insane. Does it even matter anymore? I'm sure he doesnt even ( Read more... )

so yea, shit just gets worse by the hour I swear. I'm tired of this..of my life...the way things always turn out, no matter how much I try I can never seem to be happy. I ruin everything, I guess thats what I do best, is fuck shit up. the only person I ever truly loved, and I pushed him away because thats who I am, thats what I do, I am a fuck up ( Read more... )

so what have I been doing? hmm....well....halloween night I almost got stabbed ...thats a story n a half of how that happened...uhh...I broke down again over bobby on wednesday....thursday I started talking to my old friend John.....friday....I find out my new friends dont want me around for the most stupidest reason ever......so yay for a fucking ( Read more... )

bah, so once again, nothing going on lol just trying to wake up I guess..I have really shitty nights sleep, keep waking up every hour and then because of it, end up trying to sleep till about 11. I cant wait to go back to work next month, atleast I'll have something to do to pass the time. Had another wierd dream last night with bobby though...he ( Read more... )

ben is now completely out of my life. no need for details.... nothing realyl going on....same crap, different day... whatever....im really very annoyed right now...and depressed....an no, not over ben.... just feel like im slipping slowly closer to suicide.... and im not sayign this out of desperation anymore...im actually very seriouse....what ( Read more... )

why is it that everytime I turn on the news its someone getting stabbed?? ...what happened to good old fashioned violence and murder, like just beating the crap out of people?? I think it makes you feel alot better if you must hurt someone, and then you still dont go to jail for 1st degree murder......people will never learn....anyway went to ( Read more... )

hey peoples...yea, not much going on really, im going to halloween horror nights today....I met some new friends the other day, they are cooler than a fan cut on high lol ....(wow, never thought I would use one of danny's sayings) anywho... so im really bored right now.... tis wierd how I am gettign so many messages today on myspace... from rando ( Read more... )

ok so sorry bout the last post, I read over it just now, and it was all horribly mispelled lol...oh well..so anyway, I should hopefully be going down to my old highschool today to get my withdrawel papers..then on to winter park tech for my G.E.D ....bah....thats about all I got.... I dont know what im doing anymore....as for today.....not much ( Read more... )