nothing new really going on,yesterday my mom gave ben a job at her work....im still looking...probly have to call pizza hut back today... I've kissed that $300 from sobiks good-bye, I know now that valerie has officially screwed me over.....so thats why I've been trying desperately to get another job....other than that...same shit new day....

Im just bored right now..thinking as usual... I saw bobby the other day..doubt he saw me..was too intrested talking to his girlfriend... oh well...guess it doesnt matter.... I just keep feeling like I cant be whole again.....never again.... I jsut keep trying to tell myself he doesnt love me....it doesnt help..it only makes me hurt more.... I guess ( Read more... )

I feel so fucking sick, emotionally anyway....I cant go on like this anymore....I cant...I cry and cry and cry and over what? some guy who doesnt even love me, who never loved me, who has someone else, who doesnt give a shit about me, who doesnt care anything about me, so why the fuck do I still cry and hurt so very much over him? WHY!!?? I sleep ( Read more... )

so I still havent gotten paid for my work, still pissed about that, she says she will be able to pay me by the end of the week..we'll see how that goes....other than that, things between ben and I WERE great...for the first 2 days >.< yep....same crap as usual, I couldnt even go out wearing a skirt the otherday, he made me change because "some guy ( Read more... )

so things over all are ok....except the fact I got screwed once again by Sobiks..... I called valerie friday morning because she was supposed to come by thursday with what money I did make ($273) and never did, so I called her, and she says that she doesnt have the money, all the money in the register is gone,nothing was deposited in her account, ( Read more... )

so ben is coming back....yea...I figure its worth another shot, no use waiting around for bobby, when he couldnt care less...so I guess thats it...joy to the fucking world.... oh and I did forget to mention, I got fucked over for work.... I was supposed to work mon,tues,and wednes. this week and I went into work monday and the other girl I work ( Read more... )

haha...he's white n nerdy :-D

This was just too funny, It hurt to laugh lol

I cried....ugh.... I dont know anymore...i jsut dont know....I love bobby more than anything in the world....there isn't a doubt in my mind....but he is with her now...and I will probly never see him again....there "beneficial to eachothers lives" so I hear.... whatever....maybe ben is worth another shot....who knows...I certaintly dont anymore

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