Gosh. ive been thinking about how times surely change. how one minute you think you're the happiest you've ever been and then a few months later you are the happiest you've ever been and this time it feels really different. and it's funny looking back in hindsight and realizing how unhappy i really was and the times that i was happy don't hold a ( Read more... )

okay. so...here i sit at portfolio coffeehouse after waking up early this morning to attend my 8am 3hr accounting class. thereafter, i came straight home and crawled into bed where i slept 'til 134pm. i must have needed it. i feel very refreshed, that's for certain ( Read more... )

last night, i had a scary dream. it won't mean anything to you all because it has nothing to do with you. i remember crying in my dream but no tears would come out, but i woke to find my face and my pillows and my hands drenched in my own tears. must have really effected me. i have the cottage to myself this weekend and i haven't seen a soul. ive ( Read more... )

i have a friend her name is tara she is great the end.

what, heart, are you doing??

i am tired. my eyes are tired. people expect a lot of me. i expect a lot from people. i drive far for my money. i am also a girl - who enjoys rest - who enjoys cookies and rest - who enjoys resting while eating cookies in the sunshine during BREAK.

this! hasn't! been! a! BREAK!!

every girl has her days. mine are just a bit more fierce.

ive been really hard on myself and really down a lot lately.
i have a show on sunday. i hope my hips don't show [[gulp]]

right when life's okay, satan comes back full force to screw things up.

screww you satan! you effing bastard!!!

yah..that....and...i keep seeing little figures out of the corners of my eyes
what's that all about????? :\

nothing has really made me happy enough to write an entry ( Read more... )

im back and not much has changed. only a weekend, i know. but id much rather not be here. europe in california? who'da thunk?

i wanna go back.
back with my baby.
away from routine.
my baby and me.

i left my heart...