ϡ - Appointments Post
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Bloody hell, he was lonely. Really lonely - it's strange, he used to be so afraid of people, but... But he was really lonely.
Lonely and... and afraid that, like with Ami, this had changed his relationship with Helios forever.
He attempts a very uncomfortable, ashamed little message today, because he misses Helios so damned much right now.]
... Helios...?
... C-Could... Could I... v-visit you today?
I... I would greatly a-appreciate your company...
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No of course not... [ Other factors are there to influence it instead. Too much trauma and too much being away from anyone who thought he was a decent person to be acceptable for such intimacy. ] It doesn't influence anything.
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He eats the cookie without really paying attention to it.
A little part of him wishes that this had influenced things... but, no. He shouldn't feel this way.
Monoamory is safer and easier, regardless, and besides Helios doesn't want it.]
... I-I have to a-apologize to, for... for, well... the d-discomfort. [I'm sorry for wanting you still even though I shouldn't.]
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Please don't feel the need to aplogize.
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... y-you must be a little lonely, without Giles...
[A pang goes through Robert as he says this. Jealousy, just a little bit, still clinging to that like a film. He needs to find some way to wipe that film off.]
I hope h-he comes back soon. H-He must be a very good friend.
[Robert knows he's not nearly that good...]
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[ Helios looks down at his hands in his lap. Giles is a very good friend possibly one of the best he's ever had actually. ]
I-I just hope they don't do anything too harsh. Mm but that's never the case for the Malnosso.
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[And Robert is aware of this, which is uncomfortable because he keeps wanting to be a good friend and keeps questioning his ability to be.]
The Malnosso are always... harsh.
...
Though... I spoke to... Ms. Molly, and she seemed...
... I don't know. Perhaps I am simply being sentimental.
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They just...don't care.
Molly...Molly. [ It sounds so familiar. ] Ah! That girl...during the festival wasn't it? She...she didn't seem so bad actually.
It's hard to say what the people are like. But basing it on the scientist's actions alone...I don't think it's fair. [ But what else have they seen besides that? ]
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And she remembered my name. [That makes him feel okay for some reason.]
... I was considering contacting her for a request. Or... even... simply to speak to her.
[Robert looks awkward here because he knows it sounds ridiculous. Chatting up a member of the Malnosso? Pfft.
... Which is why he's telling Helios, and not somebody who'd be cruel about it.]
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There has to be a good few people on that side. [ Helios won't be cruel about it because he wants to think there is some hope. He knows that you can't judge an entire group by the actions of one subset of it. ]
It might be good to do so. Perhaps just to keep in contact, it's the people you know sometimes that can make all the difference.
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[Robert sighs a little bit.] I just... wonder if it would be worth it.
[He hopes it would be.]
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You never know until your try, hm? [ Helios will give Robert a reassuring like and a small smile too. ]
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...
And I suppose you're right.
I mean, I'm not generally the optimistic sort, but...
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It helps. Being optimistic I mean.
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... You'd really be lost on Terra...?
... I mean, I've adjusted well enough to Luceti. But it's nothing like home... So backwards in nearly everything. [He exhales slowly, almost sadly.] ... I would've hoped that most people would want something better, but...
... I would've wanted you to visit Terra with me... But would you even want to be there?
[Robert doesn't know if he should feel rejected or not.]
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[ Helios might actually put a hand on Robert's shoulder truly a new motion for him because it is, like everything else, clumsily done. ]
I wouldn't mind seeing it at all. I'm just...not very good at the whole technology thing, you know. But I suppose going to your world would be a learning experience. First hand is always best I'd like to say.
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