Today was really blah ( Read more... )

so.....danny called this morning and said "sorry for being an asshole" missy, you were right about just letting him sort things out on his own. i hadn't talked to him since wednesday night, and he called me this morning and woke me up. it was nice to hear his voice and not be angry at him. yeah....thats all.

so......everything has been going fine.....that is until last night. i had left dannys house feeling kind of shitty.....due to hormones.....and i come home and get online, talk to my friend from pennsylvania and am doing just fine, when danny calls. when he calls he says something like "i can't handle having a fianceé right now, we need to not ( Read more... )

oh yeah, today is danny's 3 month sobriety date.....that really effing cool, i should congratulate him and tell him how proud i am.....i think this might be just about as long as he went sober before he relapsed.......thats an icky thought.

so alright, that whole post i just wrote got deleted.....effing LJ.  as i posted before, everythiing has been going well.  i have been taking time for myself and away from danny lately, which has helped me realize that i dont need to constantly obsess over him, and i dont need to see him EVERY DAY.   im in a great mood, the zoloft has been helping ( Read more... )

happy valentines day everyone.....i actually just got home from work about 30 minutes ago.......i really didnt want to work tonight. i dont really celebrate valentines day, so seeing all of these people spending tons of money on some insignificant holiday kind of made me angry (or would that be jealousy? im not sure if that's what i hope for or ( Read more... )

so im a fucking loon....today i made plans to hang out with danny this evening.....and he called and said that he couldnt because he has ot work until 9.......i got so upset that i cried about it for about 20 minutes, then went.....WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!?????!?!?! i can survive without seeing danny for a day, its not that big of a deal, sure, since ( Read more... )

hullo again.  so ive been up since 6:30 AM......how delightful.......thats about 18 hours ive been up now.  i managed to go to school today, walk through the cold to get from class to class, pick danny up from his job at subway as a "sandwich artist", and then hang out with rachel and missy.  i was hoping that i would get to see casey for at least ( Read more... )

not much going on. still kind of depressed for no apparent reason. school started back up again, and i'm enjoying that despite my early morning classes. but i guess early morning is better than late night. i found yesterday that i get depressed when i go shopping for pants because my ass is big and my thighs are big, and they make pants for ( Read more... )