Comments | footballfreak09: IGNORE THIS

footballfreak09

IGNORE THIS

Jun 10, 2006 18:59

I think it's come to the point where i'm just so used to being unhappy that i don't really notice it anymore. Then it just overwhelms me in huge, sudden waves of... whatever. I can't even explain it. I'll just be talking in some normal conversation and i'll feel it come on out of the blue ( Read more... )

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vintagebetty June 10 2006, 11:46:26 UTC

we all feel like we're just floating around, doing nothing significant or making no real connections.(and then the irony is you havent even gone anywhere, moved a step-id say forward but id rather use away from where you've been standing. you can fix this if you want to, i guess. if you don't want to, then its should be that youre happy with it. i always think you have a choice.i get your addictions, sans tv plus books.=p

footballfreak09 June 10 2006, 11:57:38 UTC

i want to. but now, i don't think i can.

vintagebetty June 11 2006, 03:15:19 UTC

no, you CAN!=)

starry_ink_well June 10 2006, 12:00:36 UTC

*hugs*
chin up, sista.
i miss you carla!
it's zoe!
i added you. :)

footballfreak09 June 10 2006, 15:02:20 UTC

thanks love :)

_chloedancer June 10 2006, 13:26:52 UTC

I think it's come to the point where i'm just so used to being unhappy that i don't really notice it anymore.

I wish I could that for myself, but I can't and when it comes, it really brings me down and I have the hardest time coping. I think once you've had a taste of being immensely happy, you end up forever searching for something that would come close to it. Still and always will be an idealist, I guess. It sucks.

footballfreak09 June 10 2006, 15:02:06 UTC

You're still lucky, I think, having at least the ups to look forward to after all the downs.

ewan, its not a big thing naman eh. Life, right? You get used to it after a while....

mordantlyquaint June 10 2006, 16:01:04 UTC

There, there, Carla. *hug* We all go through that. It's amazing that you had the courage to be honest with yourself (as well as the rest of the livejournal users/entire internet community) cos it shows that you're aware of your situation. If you have the strength to do that, then you must know that you have the power to turn it all around. :) There's probably not much you can do about your family life but maybe a change in perspective will make things lighter for you. Know that you DO have "FRIENDS-friends." ;) Rememberb back in high school when we were classmates and we used to fight a lot cos you were so messy? Or when we were getting annoyed cos you kept borrowing our school supplies then you came to class with a bigass pencil case with everything in it then you lost it? Haha that's the spunky Carla I know and love! And remember when you kept calling me Smars and it started getting on my nerves? Or how about when I hid your clothes while you were changing and Sir DLP was in the next room? And remember that time in band camp... Haha ( ... )

footballfreak09 June 13 2006, 13:50:53 UTC

awww mars, you RAPED me, i felt so violated! :((

THIS is why im so fucked up. HAHAHAHAHA =)) i miss you, too.

RAPIST.

mordantlyquaint June 13 2006, 14:01:53 UTC

Haha so it's MY FAULT now? Everything's always "Mars's fault!" :P

footballfreak09 June 13 2006, 14:07:11 UTC

HELLOOOOOOO!!! It was SO your fault! completely!

:))

pinkpixxxie June 11 2006, 08:26:10 UTC

WE ALL LOVE YOU TO DEATH AND YOU KNOW IT! =)

footballfreak09 June 13 2006, 13:52:10 UTC

love you too dear. :) just kinda get rushed into depression sometimes, kind of hard to keep the tides away.