tis the season where i do, think, and sleep about nothing but 20 page papers grappling with obscure depressing topics that make me feel crazy. it's all very nutty. yesterday, when i was walking to class i had this extremely erotic desire to throw my ipod into cherry creek... but then i realized these impulses are natural. they happen all the time, ( Read more... )

i am so tired of so many things right now... and have been for a while. time, obsessions, self-inflicted loneliness, aristotle, alcohol shields, emptiness, feeling brain-dead, mourning, overly cautious, overly careless, overly human, etc., etc., etc ( Read more... )

yes, yes. today is the anniversary of "9-11." And someone on my "friends list" posted a bulletin this morning stating the usual rhetoric of "we will not forget... greatest country in the world... blah.... blah....bablah blashalxdlsjdhdhdjsksldkfj ( Read more... )

i'm not really a poet, but this is where the sleepless morning took me ( Read more... )

having time off gives me way too much time to daydream... living in a cloud of my own whimsical imagination in which 'reality' is too few and far between meaningless recollection and depressing reflection. i still don't know what i want to do when i grow up... limits are so annoying. all these universal laws of motion and gravity etc. etc. are so ( Read more... )

oh, thank god. i have finally emerged from this odd slump that's been towering over me for what seems like a month. the last few weeks have brought a few sleepless nights, intense emotions, and basically just restlessness all around. So much happens in my life, it's weird. My life was never this exciting before -- what happened ( Read more... )

i've just wasted the last hour or two reading my online journal, which i've had since i was 18. crazy crazy.... i used to be a lot better at the whole "blog" thing, before it was even called that... before i graduated college, before i left flagstaff, before i inherited spiteful emotions and let my insecurities run wild ( Read more... )

going back to work reminds me once more that slavery is absolutely necessary for freedom to prevail. but god, i have felt so good the past few days. there is something about a sunny day that makes it impossible for me to feel otherwise. this past semester was crazy. i have never been so buried by school ever... never burned so hard.... never wanted ( Read more... )

this is annoyingly long, but i'm proud of it ( Read more... )

oh gees. i don't even know. i'm going totally crazy.... for real this time though. i'm up and down like denver weather right now and the wind is really getting to my eyes. so so elusive ( Read more... )