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Yuck..
I'm feeling so out of touch..
With my life.. With the world..
I used to read and believe in spirituality.. I strived to find it, to be apart of it, to live my life by it.
But i've found that any sort of belief is quickly consumed by other needs..
Work is a big factor of my life at the moment.. I can't stand it, and i desperatly need to find a new job ( Read more... ) -
ok here goes..
It may be time for that life style change, the one i've been searching for..
It might not fall in my lap but i realise i have to TRY.. i have to stay positive.. i have to fight through the constant darkness and use those things i care about as beacons...
For anyone who has been following my cryptic messages i shall briefly explain..
My girlfriend has ( Read more... ) -
scared
Im so so scared of whats to come..
What if it doesnt work
What if something happens.
I really cant imagine life without you..
Every two weeks saying goodbye is going to kill me..
But i know its all for a good reason..
It could save us..
Be the only answer to this struggle..
I wish i had all the answers,
I wish i could reassure you..
I know i can survive..
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Tough Times..
I've had alot on my mind lately..
There is going to be alot of times in the following few weeks where i am going to be made to make life changing decisions..
Do you sacrifice your ambitions for a short period of time to support the one you love, to help yourself in the long run... even if that means you're scared out of your mind, you're worried you' ( Read more... ) -
The Nitty Gritty
All about me... Loads of questions ive answered (quiz style) to try fill in the blanks!!
----------------------GENERAL INFO----------------------
*Birthday: 1st August 1986
*Color of eyes: Blue
*Hair: Long, Changes colour.. like magic
*Shoe size: Ive got big feet!
*Who lives with you? My sister and My Girlfriend
*When is your bedtime? whenever my body ( Read more... ) -
Maybe...
Maybe if i don't go to sleep then the new day won't start?? / I'll be in this sleepy,quiet place forever.. / I'm actually scared to go to sleep / Nightmares / Restlessness / The look on your face / The dread of waking up. -
Tonight...
I'm sorry about my insomnia..
I tried to sleep next to you tonight..
I heard you slip into a slumber..
I closed my eyes and matched your breathing..
Still nothing..
I rolled over and stroked your cheek..
You have to work at some silly hour so i can't wake you for a chat..
I got up for a drink of water, and sat down to write this for you..
Its just a few ( Read more... ) -
Nothing without you
My fingers tip toe across your lips, The soft breeze of your breath warming me.
I will wait to wake you, wait to tell you that my world is yours and i'm tied to you eternally.
Turn a blind eye to those who judge, hold my hand, whisper your mind, i'll protect you.
I will never say no, I will never hurt you, I will never walk away.
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An old one, but still stands...
This is an old post of mine from my myspace, but i thought i'd transfer it here because it still holds some significance, my mind is still open and ready... and i thought maybe someone would relate to it?
A confession to my soul, a dare for my mind. Its time to awaken to the beauty in this world, everything from the lull of day break to the ( Read more... ) -
You have hair like a lesbian...
Let's set the scene, I'm considered Lipstick.. I have long hair, i have acrylic nails, i dress femme and yes, i wear makeup!!
These days i'm finding myself surrounded by gay women with short, cute, well styled haircuts (my girlfriend being one of the main advocates) and i notice that when i'm not with my girlfriend..
I do not get noticed by other ( Read more... )