Life is really strange. And that's all I can say about it at the moment. About to be jobless again, missing my friend, and STILL constantly thinking about Ezra. I'm trying to think more positively, and trying to give Ezra the space he seems to want from me. It really looks like he doesn't want a thing to do with me anymore. He says he doesn't want ( Read more... )

I've been listening to music from high school. Probably because of Bobby. And it's so strange. It reminds me of how different I am now and how different things are in general now. My insides have been so weird lately. My emotions are crazy. I know I'm weak still because I'm anxious. But not too anxious. Stranger still, I'm more positive on some ( Read more... )

I don't care if I keep writing about him. Maybe if I write it all out of my system it'll stop. I don't know. What I do know is that I love how complex he is. I love that he's poetic and thinks so much. I love everything about him. He's perfect. I do need him in my life. I know that as well ( Read more... )

Well for one thing one of my best friends died. I haven't seen him in a while, but even when we weren't in touch as much I never considered him less than a best friend. I love him and miss him even more now. I have no fucking clue what to do. He was such a beautiful person and now he's gone. Before I could always randomly text him when I was ( Read more... )

I just have no idea what is going on anymore. I hate being impatient. Why can't love be enough?

Those are some things that are on my mind right now. What do I do?

I'm not deleting my freak out post for a good reason. When I look at it, it reminds me of two things ( Read more... )

I really exploded last night, but it's surprising how a flip out can really enlighten you. All day I was thinking about things and I came to the conclusion that his happiness is what matters. His and mine. And if someone else makes him happy then that is good. I will be happy as long as he is. Not that I'm depending on him or anything.. I just mean ( Read more... )

You're such a fucking liar! I can't fucking believe you! You're going to end up dating this fucking girl and you lied to me. Why did I even fucking try this time? Why did you even fucking lie about having any sort of feelings left for me? Why did you fuck me when you're just going to go and fuck this girl? Why did you do this to me? Either you're ( Read more... )

Oh journal ( Read more... )

Let me just start off saying that I will definitely write in this more. Wow, I always say that. I really need this though. Granted, I have a tumblr and a twitter, but I need something that no one really knows about or reads. This is it! Thank you for always being here livejournal <3 ( Read more... )