i'm at work and bored out of my mind so i guess i need to update things for the last two months. sheesh. let's start now and work back cause that seems easiest ( Read more... )

I don't know. I guess I just wanted to clarify that I don't know what to think or feel right now. I'm not quite as angry as I was earlier, but I can guarantee that it is still there just below the surface. I don't really know where all this anger is coming from except maybe I've just stored it up my whole life and I need to release it finally ( Read more... )

i've determined that i am angry. fierce. violent. ferocious. furious. pissed off. and you had better watch out because i am out for fucking vengeance ( Read more... )

child of the wilderness ( Read more... )

i sense there's something in the wind ( Read more... )

By the way, a nasty huge-ass ugly piece of shit spider just ran across my hand while I was typing... I screamed in a fricking library! I think we need to change the working conditions around here... I mean, what's next? Rats the size of pitbulls :D

I am so tired of getting mixed messages from life in general. I've got stop a) thinking so damn much and b) caring so damn much. I mean, it IS my life after all... I need to learn to step up to the plate and hit the damn ball out of the ballpark and screw it if you think I should've only ran to first base. I spend so much of my life trying not to ( Read more... )

Tonight my mom called and told me all about how my sister had a breakdown because she is so lonely. She made the comment that at least I have Gracie, that we all at least have someone. But the truth of the matter is that she has just as much as I do. The thing I realize is that everyone is lonely. I cry myself to sleep almost every night because I ( Read more... )

I am half convinced that God hates me. Why allow me to finally find someone so completely perfect for me only to have him be completely untouchable? Why does he have to like me as much as I like him? I think it would be easier if this were just my crush and he couldn't care less, but I KNOW he likes me a lot because he tells me all the time... but ( Read more... )

At work. It sucks. I'm tired. Wanna go home. Sick of the bullshit. I miss Gracie. That's all.