Last weekend and into this week I was very depressed.  This weekend has been better, but I still feel numb inside.  I feel kinda unable to relate to my body or to my life as anything other than work and responsibility... even as I'm listening to Conehead Buddha.  I need to lighten up.  I need to work on it.   In lighter news... I'm obsessed with ( Read more... )

A's room is half finished.  Thats something!  For a week off, I'm feeling very under accomplished.  It might have something to do with the torn ligament in my ankle, arthritic flare ups and general chaos of my household.  A's room is half finished.  It might need some touching up.  Once things dry, I'm going to sweep and mop the floors and move all ( Read more... )

I'm mostly very happy with election results, other than feeling a bit like a 10 year old the day after my birthday...  can you say loss of purpose?  I'm very sad about prop 8, though.  If there is a single red/blue issue on which I am take no prisoners,totally unable to shift my perspective it is homophobia and civil rights ( Read more... )

My life is in a kind of crisis. I am sorry if I owe you a phonecall, email, explanation... its going to be a while. I'm here. I'm ok. All of my attention is required elsewhere, thanks for understanding. I love all of my friends and associates very much. I know some of the very best people, but what I need right now is space because I feel like I'm ( Read more... )

Fuck, I broke down and bought a book. Now I'm reading about British counter-intelligence in WWII rather than cleaning my house and finishing work. Fuck. I'm such an addict. My bibliophile tendencies always win out.

Mr. Noun, Verb, 9/11 is blathering about 9/11. I can no longer distinguish politics from celebrity gossip. I'm so confused, but engaged. School starts tmrw for the kids and I'm terrified that V will freak. I am also terrified by my debt load and work... I'm in a generally rotten mood.

I'm far too old to be contemplating joining the army.....

I went to bed early last night rather than close cases. I'm sure I needed the sleep. Currently, i am drinking the coffee that i made last night before I decided to give up on work. sure it is ice cold, but I need the energy to rouse to podlings from sleep, both of whom have become used to later risings. Today promises to be very, very long. It ( Read more... )

Wow, depression just not lifting. I had fun at my friends' wedding last night, but it was short-lived because real life calls. I'm back at work tmrw and this week promises to be hellish. Next week won't be much better, hopefully I can get the kids into an extra week of camp, and the following week... school starts. The summer went by fast ( Read more... )

I have been out of touch. Life is moving at lightening speed and I am behind on every single aspect of it. I don't mean to be out of touch, but I am..... I will see everyone when I can.