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forever_alone

where I've been...

Feb 20, 2012 18:20

Welp, this is my first post of 2012, and it's nearly March... At first depression was keeping me silent, and now there's just been so much going on that I've been afraid to post for fear of posting too soon, then having to come back later and read hopeful thoughts that will tear my heart apart later. You know those periods of time when a bunch of ( Read more... )

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thomasvye February 21 2012, 17:50:26 UTC

I'm sorry to hear things are so hard right now; I don't really have a lot to say that can help, I don't think, but I'm thinking of you and your Grandma. Please take care. -x-

forever_alone February 24 2012, 17:31:24 UTC

It's okay, just seeing your comment alone is help enough. Thank you for your thoughts.

bishmanrock February 22 2012, 16:34:25 UTC

My thoughts are with you and your grandma, I hope things turn out alright in the end.

forever_alone February 24 2012, 17:44:31 UTC

Thank you, I really appreciate it. I hope so too.

distorted_r February 24 2012, 01:14:41 UTC

I can certainly empathize with you. While I think its pretty lame to talk about myself when commenting to such personal entries, it's necessary to understand why I know exactly where you are coming from in terms of your grandmother ( ... )

forever_alone February 24 2012, 18:43:01 UTC

I really don't think it's lame at all to talk about yourself here, quite the contrary, I think that's part of what builds friendships on LJ because you can relate your experiences with others. I've felt awkward talking about myself in comments to your entries sometimes too for the same reasons, but I always hope in the end it's for the best, since it reveals a bit more about each other and blah blah blah touchy feely bullcrap, heh.

I've known some of this before about the situation between you, your parents and your grandparents, but it's good to hear more of the full story. Also, mega kudos to your grandmother for getting sober, that's no easy task!

And its really lonely thought imagining having no one who truly understands you.Yes, this is how I feel all the time. It's considerably different for me because my mother and I are pretty much the closest out of anyone and her love is the primary thing that keeps me going, but there's also always been a special bond between my grandma and I that's beyond description. It's not that I ( ... )

forever_alone February 24 2012, 18:43:27 UTC

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distorted_r February 26 2012, 03:13:03 UTC

I'm glad I could be of some comfort. Your comments have always been that way to me too. Thank you. And don't worry, take your time getting back to to blogging. I'm not one of those people on here who starts a f-list cleaning post every time I don't see someone commenting on my crap (fuck this people). I understand life gets in the way. I know I have taken months breaks before.

As for your grandmother, I'm sure she knows how much you care. When you are that age and have a good family you just have that wisdom, at least from what I've experienced with people.

As for praying, I don't do it either, so all my good thoughts and hopes go to her, you, your mother and the rest of your family , minus that fucking perverted asshole, of course.

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xxforsakenlovex March 5 2012, 18:34:45 UTC

First of all, there's no need to apologize for your absence. We all have our burdens that we need to deal with.

I can't imagine how difficult and trying this must be for you right now, but i know i'm proud of you for doing it, even when it seems impossible or not worth it. Hell, to be honest I don't know how you do it.

I'm sorry that I couldn't be much help, but just know you're always in my thoughts.