So I met this girl...well actually I've known her but I actually hung out with her the other night for the first time. We went to club Zen down town and had a damn blast. Took me a little while to loosen up but once I did and she did, we danced forever and I absolutely loved it. I could've done it all night. She turned out to be realllly awesome to ( Read more... )

Still no job for me but Im going today or tomorrow and getting serious about finding one. I've gotta get back into the swing of things. It's just hard now. I don't really have motivation...the past 5 years I've wanted to do good because I was happy for the most part and I had a mate that I wanted to do good for so I could give us a great life. But ( Read more... )

Im finding myself feeling extremely lost and lonely lately. I thought I was getting better, then as soon as Im left alone where I can think again, I feel like this. Im trying to move on but I can't stop thinking about her still. She deserves something better than me but I can't stand to imagine her with someone else. I think I really could've ( Read more... )

ok, well a lot has happened since the last time I posted. Well, not a lot but...it's definitely all over. I couldn't do it again now even if she wanted to. Its getting better. Im going to have hard times a lot here and there but I think I'll be ok in the end. I did have a great weekend at Wils again...really good weekend. Well other than my stomach ( Read more... )

fuckkkk. This is so hard. I saw her for a few minutes a while ago. I LOVED it. She smelled so damn good. Fuck it, Im not giving up. Im not going to annoy the piss out of her but Im going to keep trying. She's definitely the best thing that's ever happened to me and Im not going to let it go without putting up a good fight. I know I fucked up but I' ( Read more... )

omg, it's really over for good. Im going fucking crazy over here. No matter how many people Im around, I feel 110% alone. It's almost a scary feeling. I've never even came close to feeling this way about anyone else. She is so special and I KNOW we're supposed to be together. This is an ordinary relationship gone bad. I know things can and would be ( Read more... )

fuck. I went and talked to her this morning for a little bit. It's definitely over...but it was still good that I went. We ended a lot better. God I can't take it. It's so fucking hard. All I want is her. Thats IT! I have SO many fucking memories that are never going to leave my head and that Im going to constantly think about. They're good ( Read more... )

...I feel so alone right now. I don't know what to do. I've never liked talking to people about my problems and usually when Im upset, I don't want to talk to anyone at be around anyone but right now...I feel SO alone right now that I feel like I HAVE to be talking to someone about something or I'll go crazy just sitting here thinking. I just miss ( Read more... )

Well, once again...we are on a break. But she's right. I have been to dependent on her and I don't do enough for her like she does for me. Hopefully this will end up for the good like it's supposed to. I know she loves me and she knows I love her. It just started and Im so ready for it to be all over already. I miss her and she means everything to ( Read more... )

hah, I was just sitting on myspace and I got to thinking....I've always hated myspace yet I find myself checking it everyday. Every so often I'll change my top friends and I care if my profile looks cool...WTF lol. I shouldn't care. I think myspace is gay. Apparently, it has become somewhat addicting. Anyway, uhh...well Angie and I are doing great ( Read more... )