i haven't been this happy in sooo long! things are going so well for me right now. i'm still broke as a joke and my grades suck ass, but i'm starting to figure out what i want to do with my life. i have amazing people in my life too. my family situation is awesome. i miss my real mom and my siblings out in new hampshire but i'm so glad i get to ( Read more... )

So, first entry of the year and first entry in about a month. what to say ( Read more... )

i do not deserve that at all. i dont deserve to be treated that way. so just because HE moved too fast into something...i'm the one that gets hurt. i'm the one that gets ignored. AGAIN. i gave him another chance, with all his "i realized what i was missing," "i'm so sorry, i wont hurt you like that again," WHAT THE FUCK. then, to come to mount ( Read more... )

I want to change. I want to believe that I can. Some people say that people just can't change...and thats discouraging. I want to be better. I want to be happier. I want to do things and not feel like they were all mistakes. I mean, I 've learned a lot from all the things I've done, but have I really learned? A lot of times I don't think I have ( Read more... )

so, i havent updated recently...it's been a while ( Read more... )

so, i think i'm living in copper beach next year! yay!! it'll be me and a couple delta zetas... i know one of them and shes really cool, but i dont know the others. so, we'll see. but i didnt have anywhere to live and no one to live with..and they asked me, so i think that's what im going to do! i'm pretty excited about it too ( Read more... )

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snow...it sucks. i hate cold. its crappy. everything gets slippery. people get in lots of accidents. you have to scrape your windsheilds which takes forever when you ahve to be somewhere. your skin gets dry. its just plain crap ( Read more... )

**warning: this is the longest entry i've ever recorded...read on at own risk ( Read more... )

i love him. i always have. always will. nothing i have done since we broke up has seemed significant in my life. nothing is complete without him. its my fault too. and iknow it. and its my fault we didnt get back together. but i had things to learn and i see everything in a whole new light. i would be better to him then ever before. i appreciate ( Read more... )