For the last two days I gave in to my impulses.  I went after any attention I desired.  I said exactly what I was thinking when I wanted to.  I didn't sugar coat things or just "let things go."  I didn't suppress what I was actually feeling around people ( Read more... )

Not that the person who actually cares can read this, but here is my explanation ( Read more... )

I'm home!!!!!! Yay!  I'm so happy to be back at Alfred, finally.  My apartment is small, but it's not too bad.  We have a big kitchen and a bath tub, which is all I really care about.  My room is all settled and decorated and lovely.  There is food in the kitchen that I can cook.  And knives, lots of pretty knives.  It feels lived in already, which ( Read more... )

It is so bloody hot.  I didn't know that Western Washington was capable of this kind of heat.  It is 101 outside.  Dear god.  Luckily there is a little bit of wind so that I am not dying.  I think my lips are sunburned.

In other news, my car is now clean.  mostly.  as I could not actually find the car washing stuff, I improvised and used what I ( Read more... )

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Today was calming.  I set out walking in the direction I always go when I walk alone.  Down the road to the trail that leads behind LC; towards the cottage, the creek, the park and beyond.  I walked down to my favorite spot in the whole town.  The place where I go to nestle into the roots of the big oak tree, to watch the water flow by, to cry and ( Read more... )

This was the most fucked up mini-road trip ever.  Seriously.  I left B'ham at 12:30 and headed south to Seattle and beyond to Orting.  Traffic was nice and easy all the way through the parts that are usually hellish (aka Everett and Seattle), but then all of the sudden I hit Bellvue and things came to a screeching halt.  From there all the way ( Read more... )

Everything is open
Nothing is set in stone
Rivers turn to oceans
Oceans tide you home
Home is where the heart is
But your heart had to roam
Drifting over bridges
Never to return
Watching bridges burn

You're driftwood floating underwater
Breaking into pieces, pieces, pieces
Just driftwood, hollow and of no use
Waterfalls will find you, bind you, grind you

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So pretty much my body hates me. For no reason. Fine then, Body, I hate you too! It's war now, and I will win because I am smarter. Grrr.

Oh my gosh, what a crazy day. So I wake up, do my usual routine, toast, computer, pilates, shower, etc...then I decide that I should have a little friendly get together tonight so I call my friends and everything is all wonderful and happy. I head over to pick up Kat to finish up some Christmas shopping, spend 1/2 hour in her basement playing ( Read more... )