I just applied to a school on the other side of the country. I am feeling so many things at once. I am excited, terrified, thrilled, sad, happy, exploding. I have never lived my life for me and I finally have the chance and I have no idea what to do with all of this freedom.

Sometimes a flood of compliments mean nothing if they're from the wrong people.

is this really worth the struggle??????

I can't find what I love about myself.

Over the past two months I've lost one of the closest friends I've ever had. He appreciates me for me. My artistic side, my goofy side, my grumpy side, my understanding and my insight. He sees every single piece of me as important and wants to dissect every bit and learn. And all I did was lose touch. I get so caught up in me and in changes that I ( Read more... )

Every single cell in my body belongs to someone else.

I want to find myself

I have so much to write, I have so much going on my head. I can't get it out through my fingertips. Someone listen to me.

I'm jealous of the ones who can love themselves fully with the help of their loved ones. Why can't I find it in myself to do the same?

Does anyone have any ideas for a gift for me to get Ryan for our one year anniversary? It's the 21st of December so I don't want to go too big since I'll be getting him Christmas gifts as well.

I haven't even started my shopping I'm so far behind it's unbelievable. :(