Really??? It gets shittier??
Come on, just give me a break.

I want to feel better. Please make everything disappear. Please make everything easier. I'm not as strong as I look.

First vacation from everything since before I moved to Delaware in August of 07. I AM THRILLED!!!

I just want to feel okay, feel okay, feel okay.

I go this morning to get a heart monitor put on. Will I ever catch a break??? I'm 20 years old, remember?

I haven't had this many issues with money in a really long time. Things kind of suck.
I want to get to school, have a good paying job, and get out of here.

"Sometimes when I'm mad, or hurt, or just upset I say things I don't mean."

Bre says it best. I miss Ryan so much it hurts to breathe.

Letting go is way harder than everyone makes it out to be. I haven't heard from Ryan in 2 days and I already hate myself for ever saying to not talk to me until he's enrolled in school. Especially since he is on vacation right now....with girls included. I. Am. An. Idiot.

I'm very lonely.

I realized last night I'm REALLY going to miss my family when I move. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, right? Me and Billy have been getting along so well, and I love it. It's the first time in 20 years I'm able to say I can sit at the kitchen table and enjoy his company ( Read more... )

I keep telling myself I need to write in here more often, document what happens to me. But all that happens when I click update is I remember how boring my life is. Nothing ever happens to me to make me think "OH I need to write this down later." I feel that if I write it's a waste of everyone who reads' time. But I doubt anyone does. My life has ( Read more... )