It's my 21st birthday today. Doesn't feel much like a birthday to me.

I was honestly just fine all day, but here come flashbacks and feeling really alone...I just need a real hug

I saw daniela today. She loved the scarf I had knitted for her. We talked about how depressed I've been getting again, despite the cymbalta. The depression is worst at night, though. I've been really anxious and she told me I could take the klonopin twice a day and if a whole one isn't enough that next time I see her she talk to me about trying ( Read more... )

I had a bit of a dispute with my mother last night. We don't see eye to eye because she doesn't understand. I can't get better unless she gives me a chance at freedom, a chance at taking care of myself. I can do it if she would let me. But she said some things that really hurt me last night. She's not a sensitive person ( Read more... )

I've quit ECT. I was just having horrible side effects from it like bad nausea that they couldn't get to go away, itching from being allergic to something they gave me - all over. my memory was also was badly going and I'm finding I'm having some trouble with it still because it's slow coming back. Secondly, I starting to crash after every ( Read more... )

The pictures I want Icons made out of are behind the cut. One person is taking care of me with Indy (the puppy) and someone else can take care of Perry Mansfield and the origami butterfly.

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After the crisis with ECT, I stopped seeing Dr. Fisher because I was given morphine and morphine makes me very sick. And they gave it to me multiple times. And I repeatedly told them "Do not give me morphine." Dr. Guerra has never given me morphine. He'll be back on wednesday. So that's when I'm going in. That's the short version ( Read more... )

Wow, this is such a good idea ( Read more... )

Here is me with my puppy. He's gone to the trainer, Shannan, for about the next year. He's being trained as a psychiatric service dog. He was born on July 4th. :) Shannan will be the one to name him. She says the right name will just come to her.


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ECT is going well. Dr. Fisher is covering for Dr. Guerra. I'm doing very well right now ( Read more... )