I always wanted to a write a memoir, I think I started it writing him that 15 page letter- I spilled unto the pages, everything these last couple months brought out of me, the happiness the pain the rawness. It's been a week and a half since I delivered it into his hands, He has not read the first sentence yet, and still ... It's out there, It's ( Read more... )

Crawfordsville Indiana, two bottles of whiskey, a wedding, and a hotel room.

I didn't know what ot expect out of this weekend, but i am happy with the results.

went home for four days, and i feel so happy.

i'm really mad.

a girl should never have to walk home alone in the middleof the night, i don't care how busy you are cleaning your garage.

The last couple weeks have been rough, to say the least, I don't feel like I'm in my own life, just sitting by watching shit happen. I started reading a book, Loose Girl, but it's not cut and dry sex, it's much more complicated. This girl has sex to fill this gap, substituting it for love, which is what she really needs/wants. I love reading, but I ( Read more... )

I got wasted last night, could barely stand trashed, and the one who always takes care of me during my far between moments of drunken foolishness was not there. But "the family" took care of me, i will miss them when i move out but i won't be far from them. and hopefully they'll still want me around as much as i want to be around.

To D(who might ( Read more... )

Art as Flirtation and Surrender
 by Rumi

In your light I learn how to love.

In your beauty, how to make poems.

You dance inside my chest,

where no one sees you,

but sometimes I do,

and that sight becomes this art.

for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes - e.e. cummings

to the most beautiful YES ever uttered: life itself - charles bukowski

1. "Leave him please, you deserve so much better. in my eyes you are beautiful, talented, and resourceful, i wish i were more like you- andi would never put up with him"
   
   
2. ..... nevermind.
   
   
3. "I think you are strong for loving someone in iraq, even though i hate this god damn war"
   
   
4. "I had sex with you once, sober and hurried in the afternoon, don't act like ( Read more... )

erased
and i feel so much better.