wow. it has been an awful long time.
i had leaving these things on sad notes so if i never write on this journal again (doubtful, i'm so nostalgic... but still) then i just want to say, i'm happy or atleast i feel like things aren't so intense as how i used to feel them. everything just seems like it will all work out.

been too long since i've had anything to say, and still do i have something to say now? as i type this ( Read more... )

Just write it, just put it out there, just let it out of myself.

I don't feel anything anymore. No butterflies when someone new leans in to kiss me or tells me i'm perfect and beautiful. 
Not since you. last spring, and summer, just having you hold me, kiss me at my door, even the sex. I can't even get wet anymore, for anyone, not since we slept ( Read more... )

 So, hair chopped off. 
But still at a length that it can be bobby pinned and things, so i need ideas, because i have no idea how to fix short hair! 
please please leave ideas

 "Maybe all this time, we've been held down by the heavy weights of our own thoughts. Maybe all this time we've searched around, it's been so long, that we forgot, what we want, what we want, what we want, what we want we already got ( Read more... )

 "Why would you ask me to spend the night with you if you thought i got with your roommate that same night?"
"Well if you had've got with him, that's whatever, I had my own agenda"
"that is literally disgusting"

I forgave him for calling me a liar, for being rude to me, but i just don't know how i'm going to forgive this conversation. 

 is it possible, to only feel love when the weather's right ( Read more... )

i don't know what to write, nothing quite sounds the way i want it to. and everything is always about that one same person.

six months and the letter lies unread between your matress.
two months and he decides to tell me he thinks relationships are based no convience not love or even the hope of love.
i am so sick of months.

Some people will never read the fifteen page letter you wrote them, but two months later will say they are leaving someone, just like you are doing, and try to kiss, try to imply things without the words that will trap them in their doings. These are the people that you can not hold on to, no matter how many pinky promises you makes or late night ( Read more... )