its so depressing to live in shit. the depressing is ever present and never lets the good shine through. seeing the good through this cloudy film of shit is one of my greatest attributes. but sometimes i can no longer find humor in sadness. and can no longer laugh. but just sit and ponder my life choices and dwell on the past and the decisions i ( Read more... )

i dont know what has been wrong with me the last few days. I have felt very strange. Its almost as if i am missing something. something that i have been missing for a very long time. i wish i could figure out what it is, because its eating away at me like a fucking cancer. every day i go to school and come home, this endless cycle is making me ( Read more... )

just a real quick post. i was going to type a long one but i got done and my computer froze and erased it so i just will tell u of this sight. wwww.mysticball.com DUDES u must visit this site it is so kew.

dude im starting the writing of my "book". ive decided its about. like the youth grunge scene. u know. like homeless teens that no one cares about. this guy named john. this guy like lives in shit man. his mother abandoned him and his father used to beat him. he ran away when he was sixteen. and now lives in a low rent apartment complex owned by ( Read more... )

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u know what world. i like cheese. cheese is a pass time and i dont care what u say. even u jerry. if u even update ur damn journal anymore. which u dont !!!! bitch. sometimes u should just go on there and say what u have to say even if u just describe something that u are looking at. hehe. really man if u dont im gonna come on here and freak out ( Read more... )

a new day. bright ass sun which im not to happy about. i prefer the night. something about darkness calms me. i just despise bright sunny days. but i dont like rain so im kinda fucked. my brother woke me up today at fucking 10:00 i almost hit him. but if i would have hit him it would have been really hard. and in the face because im not a morning ( Read more... )

Many people dont understand the troubled youth of todays world. These children who act out, kids who find find release only in music or drugs. Children who lock themselves in their rooms for hours. listening to music from their favorite band. Trying to drown out the craze thoughts of their minds that have been corrupted by our fucked up society. A ( Read more... )

In my world there is nothing good to live for. all that is good is taken from me not allowed or taken away before i can enjoy it. for all that i have ever loved, have turned their back on me. some even had the nerve to ask me to open up, not knowing what they ask of me. but with the sharing of deep thoughts comes only misunderstanding and rejection ( Read more... )

hey tanner if u cant see this buddie im gonna freak the hell out cuz it took a long time to figure it out hehe
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