Things are alright here. I have had a lot of time to think lately. I haven't posted about my group therapy in a while. Those who are closest to me an know me best have commented on how much they have seen me change since starting group. I actually think I am more confident in a strange way. Knowing that there are other women who have been through ( Read more... )

I'm not depressed right now. I'm not really anything. I have spent a lot of my energy lately not thinking. There have been so many changes going on in my family situation recently that I can't keep my emotions straight. I'm alright though. It just feels overwhelming at times. Planning the wedding is stressful in ways that it shouldn't be. If things ( Read more... )

I have been having a lot of vivid and unusual dreams lately. Last week I dreamed that Q (from the Star Trek Q Continuum) had taken over my family (consisting of me, my ten dream siblings, mother, and father.) He blinked the father out of existence because he take over his place in order to experience being in a human family. We didn't actually mind ( Read more... )

Because there has been so much shocking, unexpected, fucked up stuff happeining lately to write down, I present you with instead:




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I just talked to my mom about an hour and a half ago. I don't think my parents are going to be making it into town for the show. My father is in the ER. I think he broke his foot. I don't know. I am always left out of the loop. I am so sick of everything going wrong right when I start feeling better. Damn it. I think it is just meant to be, that no ( Read more... )

I'm actually really excited about the play tonight. Jeremy and his boyfriend are coming. Annalisa will also be there if she doesn't get into any major traffic jams. I'm so excited! I think Alan is going to really shine. He's so handsome in his princely outfit. Anyway, I should go. I want to make him a card for tonight.

The play is coming up. Last night's rehearsl went alright. Tonight we will be in full makeup and costume. I need to figure out a way for that stupid hat to stay on my head. I don't know wheather I am going to be putting my hair in buns or using the fake hair attachment they gave me. It does help keep the hat up. I still don't feel very strong in my ( Read more... )

Life marches on and time heals. Things have been rough, but I haven't locked myself in the closet yet, and that's always a sign of improvment. I have made some positive steps in my life recently. I stood up for myself before it got to the point of no return, which is when I usually wait to say something. I feel good about it overall and pretty ( Read more... )

Life has been rather difficult lately. Group went horribly on Tuesday. For one thing, only 5 of the 10 people showed up, which was extremely discouraging. Then at the earlier encouragement of my personal therapist I brought something up that she assured me others could identify with and not a single person did and I felt pretty isolated. I will ( Read more... )

Attending the wake and funeral of my Uncle Doug was the most difficult thing I have ever done in my life, at least that I can remember. Watching my aunt in such intense pain was the hardest. She was sobbing and saying she couldn't make it without him and that her heart was breaking and my heart broke for her. Her two sons were strong. They were ( Read more... )