i showed up at 3pm and filled out some paperwork and paid $385. the receptionist was so glad to see me and wonderful. then i waited. i peed into a cup and then had an ultrasound. all of this after the nurse practitioner hit me several times with my file ( Read more... )

the second time i woke up today, i had bled all over myself (but thankfully not the bed). i got up to urinate and i bled tons and tons more into the toilet. all painless and otherwise feelingless. then i brushed my teeth. this, of course, caused me to throw up for the second time today ( Read more... )

yesterday i took one pill at 530pm at planned parenthood. today, 24 hours after that, i get to put 4 pills inside of my vagina ( Read more... )

i woke up very late today because i couldn't sleep last night and i went out. i drank one beer and a few sips of wine. now i'm on my way to the grocery store.. or something ( Read more... )

tomorrow is the big day ( Read more... )

puke&foodlast night i only slept for five hours because we had to wake up very early to catch the flight home today. i've been dry-heaving when i brush my teeth for the past few days and this morning i actually threw up. that was gross ( Read more... )

today i had a mental image of the nurse putting the pills inside of me. that is the first time i have felt the emotion 'fear' since i discovered the news. i jumped out of a fucking plane, and this abortion is going to scare me? i don't think so ( Read more... )

scratch all that.

just grow up.

much love,
me

for all intensive purposes, we went in on this deal 50/50. neither/both of us are to blame; you physically 'made us one' while i allowed myself to be blinded by passion, lust, and attraction. so we're half-and-half, agreed. then why the fuck does it seem like i'm the only person affected by it at all? not just physically (duh), but emotionally as ( Read more... )

i almost cried today for the first time since this whole thing started. i was eating lunch with my family and i completely lost my appetite between the time i ordered and when the waiter was out of sight. my fucking idiot little brother kept commenting on how much i was wasting food, even though i had previously explained to him that i have no ( Read more... )