today i felt happy, it might have been the frist time in a wile im not even sure why,
i cant stop, things are going good atleast i think 2weeks and one day,then i will be free,
job is good work is fun money is a plus, i want to move forward but i might be stuck.

the past comes in to play, i wrote this in my old lj last year some time.

"i dont know waht to say,
i pick the best
end up at my worst
i dont care at all any more not about 1/2 the things i once stood for
i cant make any thing go right.

ive been so down lately
youve been so low lately
nothing seems to work out for you and me"

im going to leave this town soon.

im not sure but i think i fucked up every thing,
i hate my life.

i work now
i love it
more then any thing
i love not sitting around
doing nothing all the time
making money so im not broke
as a bitch
im good at fucking things up
and i think i have....

its cold out