I really do hate it here, i am sick of my jobs working like a jackass 7 days a week and not even being able to keep money because every time I turn around I have some new bill or whatever to pay, let alone the fact that I barely sleep because of the crazy hours I get stuck pulling ( Read more... )

life is funny at times, one day you feel like the weight of the world is pushing down on you and you don't feel like trying anymore, then the next everything's right where it belongs ( Read more... )

i miss a lot of things right now, i wish i could go back but its what happens ( Read more... )

It has been a long time since I last posted here, and from what I just saw I must have been really down in the hole when I last posted. I am glad to say I am finally free from all the people who were holding me down and being detrimental to my life. As of now I am on my own about to start going to Unity College in Maine for Conservation Law ( Read more... )

a lot has changed, it has been almost a year since my last post and this is the only place i can get out how i feel. a lot has happened. i was with my ex sara until june 2008 and it was good for a while then the same shit started. i blame it on we spent to much time together and got sick of seeing each other, we had sex all the time( i was once ( Read more... )

the words the past always repeats itself is echoing through my head now, and it has been for about I would say a week now. everything I was promised is a lie. Everything. I see no end to this constant struggle, I feel as if I am stuck in quicksand, I know not to struggle and fight but it is what I do and I am slowly but surely going down. I have a ( Read more... )

I notice so many things these days ( Read more... )

Sara was right...i realize everything now...somewhere along the line I changed into someone I am not to try to please people...but now i see that I have lost myself and forgot who I am...I made myself be someone I am not because i wanted to be liked and popular, and that is something I never wanted to do ( Read more... )

love is shit...i have come to this realization tonight. just so much shit went down in the last 2 days i dont know..well i do. i know love is fucking meaningless. All this shit revolves around yet again Sara ( Read more... )

I wish that people actually understood me ( Read more... )