Hola, haven't updated on this one in quite a bit. Anyhow, in case you didn't read my other journal, New Year's Eve party at my house! Invites will be out shortly, and please, don't bring alcohol. This a going to be a drug frr party. And oh yeah...sober for six months and some odd days now!!! Good on me! Lyndsey decided that we should celebrate with ( Read more... )

I can feel myself slipping away. I'm not the same as I was. And I've lost hope in everything. I think I'm really giving up. I'm considering things that I never considered before. I just feel like I've lost something so huge that I could never get it back and there could never be anything that could fill this gaping hole inside of me. These scars ( Read more... )

I feel forgotten and misused. today sucks. And I'm still without.

I want to be loved and I want to be with the person I love. I want him to protect me from the things that I can't escape. But, I'm alone and I'm scared and I'm selfish. I feel like I can't breathe. There's this pain inside of me that keeps growing. I feel almost dead. I want this to be over. This pain and this feeling. I don't want to be the one ( Read more... )

hey people's I am extremely bored. c/m. Going through some changes. Need to talk to someone. Much love.
B

I'm not better any more. It's my last night here and she chooses to let me leave with things bad between us. She loves to hurt me. And she loves to see me the way that I am now. She just doesn't get it. She can see the flaws in everyone else, but herself. And she's still blaming me for everything. She chose to let my last night at home be one of ( Read more... )

I don't think I'll ever find him. I don't think he'll ever know now. Because if we can't find him, who will tell him? I'll never get the chance to tell him how much I hate him and how much he hurt me, he hurt us all. And it's all because of his god damned Dad. All I wanted for so long was just to hear his voice. To know he was all right and he ( Read more... )

I'm bored. Jess and me are supposed to be hanging out but she won't pick up her fucking phone!!!!!!!!!!! WOW!!!!!! Only 9 days. It seems like it should be like a month or perhaps 2 away. Not NINE days!!! I'm leaving in nine days and I'm pretty sure I have everything I need mow. My heart is only slightly pounding, because of many things. One: Brazil ( Read more... )

hey people's how are you. I haven't updated on here for awhile. I've been neglecting you all. Alright I should go. Jess is saying something to me and I'm not paying any attention to her at all. Good times. Kayla andLaura, call Jess. Come over here and be our friends. PLEASE. SO BORED!!!

Much love to my peoples.

Always Always,
B

Now my forsaken page is fucked up too, what the hell did you do?!?!?!?!? Any way I give up and I abandon you. I leave you now, loser. Bye losers. And Justin, some of your quiz answers are funny, sad and cool. love the candy heart. Bye all. Much love.

Always Always,
B