So... Where to begin? I'm 22 years old, married with two kids, wondering how everything turned out as bad as it has. Things haven't been going well between Carl and I for awhile. But the longer we're married, the worse it gets ( Read more... )

Day in and day out I find myself wondering about the past and the future ( Read more... )

There is but one person in my life who knows the real, true me. He is the only one I have never hidden anything from. He is the only person who has ever brought a true smile to my face. I love my family and friends, but I always had to fake my feeling around them. They would worry about me if I didn't. With my Dark Angel, everything was and still ( Read more... )

Whether you like it or not there's going to be a new me coming soon. No more chasing after Trent and hopeing we'll get back together. No more being depressed all the time. From now on things are going to be different. I'm going to be different. I'm going to be happy and energetic. If I'm sad it will be because I'm alone, not because I'm not with ( Read more... )

Thoughts constantly run through my mind. Thoughts of regret, shame, disappointment. I feel as if my life is headed nowhere. As if I'm headed nowhere. I see myself ending up in some dead-end factory job for the rest of my life and I can't help but think that it's my fault. Like I should have done things differently. Like, maybe if I hadn't made some ( Read more... )

Memories fly through my mind as I sit here in front on my computer typing this. As time goes by and draws closer to their departure I can't help but think of the past ( Read more... )

As days go by, I fade away a little more. My two best friends seem like they're pulling away from me. One is leaving in a few days and she's going to be gone for a few months and the other just seems like he's pulling away from me emotionally. I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to cry and sleep away the days. But I can't ( Read more... )

So yeah, me and Stefi have made a deal.... We're both really afraid of being hurt again.... So We've decided to take a chance. She's going to try things with James and I'm going to try things with her brother Jeremy. And if things don't work out, neither of us can get mad. We're taking a leap of faith. I don't know how this is going to turn out. ( Read more... )

Whispering winds speak of sadness ahead ( Read more... )

Just got back from Chicago about half an hour ago. It was a total bust. The youner two were brats, and my friend Myda didn't keep her word about coming to get me so I didn't get to see her. If it wasn't for Bethany I would have hated the trip all together and that's sad because I love being in Chicago ( Read more... )