In a stupid twist of logic, part of me feels that I shouldn't be writing this as you'll never read it. What's the point in telling you how I feel if you're not going to be there to listen to what I have to say. Equally, I write as much probably more to myself, sending myself emails at home as if it's going to someone else who can deal with not ( Read more... )

I know now that I am moving on but it's so halfhearted. I'm moving on Saturday into a house share. It's with someone I get on well with so I'm kind of looking forward to settling down somewhere where I can have my things around me. The trouble is that things aren't what are important. I don't have my beloved Sarah anymore, I don't have my Kieran, ( Read more... )

How can I just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace ( Read more... )

What a day, I can't believe what has happened in the states. Just goes to prove that our lives may be shorter than we think and that they are short enough anyway. Todays events have only proved more to me that I love you Sarah and that I could love you forever. I feel futile. I feel that like all of those lifes, snuffed out without even knowing it ( Read more... )

Oh well. Just got back from my nightly run to Portland heights. I've been there very day since we split up. Sometimes driving endlessly from here to there and back again. Spent a fortune in petrol. Just like the days when I used to drive around just hoping for a glimpse of you. I go to all the special places. This time though you're not there are ( Read more... )

You just don't understand do you honey? You can't comprehend that the sheer enormity of my feelings for you could make me upset and frustrated enough to say the things I did. You simply have no idea of how much I love you do you. Perhaps thats my fault for not telling you, perhaps you just don't want to hear it. This wasn't history repeating itself ( Read more... )

Oh and I need your discount card back, and i'll sort out finneys this week