i feel oppressed. i feel like i have no life. why are you in control of my life. why do i still go along with your will. just cause youre stuck in SG, i am stuck too. why cant you let me go with them and wish me well. why are you so selfish. it's impossible for ALL my first times to be with you. it's not a 'collect-them-all' kinda thing. you force ( Read more... )

am following shitloads of people who look great on instagram. famous people. fitness people. people i dont even know or heard of until i see their body on @fitnessfreaks or sth like that haha then i follow and start to get amazed by their lifestyle. its not just a temporary diet / a novelty for them. their whole life probably revolves around it ( Read more... )

things get ruined when people start wanting more. when people expect more but dont get what they want. they get dissatisfied and unhappy. people just dont know contentment and when to stop asking for more. instead of asking how much i am supposed to be receiving, we should be asking how much can i give instead. things cant always remain as what it ( Read more... )

everytime i put my heart out and pray that it wont get trampled upon, it does-.- its so tiring on my part to have to keep believing and believing. listening to you say the words that i am not even sure you mean. honestly, how the hell do you expect me to stop worrying and start believing when everyday i see the same old shit. how coincidental can ( Read more... )

i find immense pleasure in vehemently stabbing the cranky old blacked waffle machine whenever i do the closing shift. there is a certain pleasure derived whenever i see those pieces of hardened burnt waffle flying out. -poke poke poke- one by one, the grooves of the machines are slowly cleared. i can imagine a perfectly formed waffle, one that ( Read more... )

every single fucking time i think things are gna get better, i get a huge slap in the face telling me to wake up my idea. how could i ever think that you will change when the only thing that keeps you going might just be your ego. i am not going to be a pawn in your game. i am so much more than that.

I have no idea why I am taking up two jobs and continue training even though it means tiring the hell out of myself and I guess I will never know. I always wondered how it would be like to have every weekend to myself and have all the time in the world to do things that I always thought of doing. Rowing has been a motherhuge part of my life ): ( Read more... )

Like how you came and destroyed my whole life because I put you as higher priority sigh ccas suck the life out of me and I reap no rewards from it ):

pretending to be studying and acting busy on alyssa's laptop is qt fun hahahaha i love reading other ppl's blogs and then derive inspiration from there. there's this colourful blog that i have been quite hooked on and it's called colormekatie.blogspot.com omg the pictures that she posts are so pretty omgomgomg ( Read more... )

that makes me go oh oh ( Read more... )