Moment after moment i continuously ask myself is it worth it. Today i saw the most disturbing video i have ever seen in my life. It was of an iraqi cutting off some guys head and then shooting half a dozen others. Again i ask myself is joining the marines worth it. I feel that God wants me to go but for what purpose? to go and die for some ( Read more... )

Lately I've found it harder to keep a sane state of mind. Balanceing time between school, Catilin, God, my friends, thinking about my future, and still having some chill time is proving to be harder than i expected. My grades are not as bad as they normally are but i dont know how much longer i'll be able to keep that up. I'm so stressed out ( Read more... )

Well I'm still not getting alot of support on joining the corps but i dont really expect it to change. I talked to gray the other day (Caitlin's brother) and he helped me alot on some of the things i needed to know. It's scary how much me and the guy are alike. We both wanted to be helicopter pilots, we both went to look at the army 1st. The ( Read more... )

Im not getting a whole lot of support in my thinking about joining the marine corps. I guess i shouldnt really expect to. Everyone acts like i dont know what im getting myself into and hell maybe i dont but i have been studing the military for years now. Bout the only way i could learn any more about it is to acctually enlist and go for it. Yet ( Read more... )

With all this looking into joining the marine corps i have had the marine corps hymn stuck in my head so i decided to just put it in my journal for some reason. at least it looks pretty kool

This Is My Life, RatedLife:

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Well i felt my journal needed a change of pace because i have had that crappy jet background up there for a while and quite frankly i just got tired of looking at it. So i just throw this thing together in a few minutes and changed stuff up a bit. if nothing else it atleast looks different than it did. well that's all for now.

You know what is a major problem in teenagers today? lack of self suffiency. Teenages become so dependent on others that they make it seem like they can live on their own. No matter what you say, you dont NEED a b/f or g/f to live. People who say this dont know how much work a real relationship is. If you cant handle living on your own you ( Read more... )

Well i got to looking into ROTC and i think i am going to go to Auburn university in alabama because 1. it's a good school, 2. they have the program i want there and i think they have an aviation degree i can get, and 3. it's just a couple hours away from caitlin. Instead of the army ROTC i am thinking of going into the navy ROTC with a marine ( Read more... )

Well i found a college i'm really interested in. It's a christian college and it has an ROTC course. I am thinking of trying to go there and get a degree in military science but the only thing is that it's like $21,000 a year just for tuition and room and board. This doesnt include personal expenses, books, supplies, or anything of that nature ( Read more... )