Here is the story about a few other friends we gained in our work/study adventures. It was mid 2009 and Grip, Skeet, Myself, and Shane had just moved into our apartment ( Read more... )

Since I'm working 3rd shift this week I've got a lot of free time to stop and think about all the events and memories I want to share on here. I can think of only 1 moment in time that really deserves to be the start of this adventure. It was a time in my life that really started my journey to the "Dark Side." So here it begins ( Read more... )

An Idea came to me just last night that I should restart this journal. Primarily because so much has happened in the time between now and when I last really updated. And also to put these memories on paper to remember them for years. These last few years have had a big impact on my life and I felt that I needed to preserve them and share them ( Read more... )

I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really hate fords ( Read more... )

*sigh* where to start. I wish i knew the answer to that. Seems like i dont even know where i am anymore. It's like i'm just here... where ever that may be. I've been really stressed out and depressed as always. I just wish i knew where i stood. It's like there are different people in my head and they all feel a different way. Part of me ( Read more... )

Well I've had alot of time to think about the weeks past events reguarding elise. I've come to realize i am clueless. I have no idea what i'm going to do. I mean dont think that i'm just jumping to her from caitlin. I mean I loved caitlin to death i did but i've been over her for some time. I didnt even know i was over her until all this ( Read more... )

Well things have calmed down i guess. Had a long talk with Elise lastnight and everything is cool now. I guess i'll just sit back and see what happens. As of right now i'm not trying to be with her anymore. I dont know if i ever will again. I mean yes I still love her but I mean i have given the girl 6 years to be with me. Now if the ( Read more... )

Well I had to go to andalusia today to see elise and some other stuff my parents had to do. Well as if lastnight wasnt painfull enough I had to sit in the same room with this girl. I couldnt even look at her hardly. I didnt speak to her or spend any time with her really. I sat outside or layed on the couch most of the time until it was time to ( Read more... )

*sigh* where to begin. Well the other day Elise and I were talking and I told her i feel safe when i talk to her and think about dating her and she said she felt the same way. And that she had been thinking what it would be like dating me the night before. I told her she could do better than me and she said dont say that. Never say that ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I was in a relationship and i've come a long way but something still bothers me. I just cant figure out how i can date. You know I feel I am better suited for standing on the side lines and protecting people rather than being in a relationship. It seems that I always get myself into situations that bring me misery. I ( Read more... )