I neglect this journal. I need to update it more often. I dont think many people read this so I'll keep this separate from everyone else ( Read more... )

I'm joining the army. I'm going to try to get their warrent officer program so I can be a helicopter pilot. I know i said I'd never join the army but I just want to fly. I know it's dangerous and all that crap but If I die I'll at least be happy... It's better than sitting around here wasting my life away over lost love... I'm going to talk to ( Read more... )

You know it's funny how quickly life can change on you. A month ago I was the happiest guy in the world. I had just an amazing girlfriend. I had no worries left really. I mean I had the typical ones about what I was going to do with my life. And a week ago it's all gone. I look at my life now and realize I'm in trouble. I have plans for my ( Read more... )

Gosh we had SSSOOO many shoes today! I bet I had 10 or 11 boxes full of shoes. Plus I had to do some other girls job because she didnt come in. It was so bad that I stayed 30 minutes after and still didnt get my shoes out onto the floor. Oh well it's good for me and I need the extra time anyway to make up for when I left early last week ( Read more... )

As of right now this will be the last entry about this subject in this journal. I said some pretty hurtful things to caitlin but i feel she deserved it but i realize now some of those werent true. I did love her. I treated her the best I could. And At the time it happened I didnt think I could be her friend but tonight I remembered that I did ( Read more... )

Why do I still hurt.. please someone tell me why. I forgave her, God forgave me but why does it still hurt? It hurts SSSOOO bad. I am still having trouble breathing sometimes. I think this is going to put me in the hospital before it's over. Either her memory or the drinking is going to kill me. I thought this morning that everything would be ( Read more... )

You know I neglect this journal and i feel bad about it because it's one of the best friends i have ( Read more... )

I got sent home from work lastnight because I had a nervous breakdown because of all this caitlin crap. I managed to drive home and I ate something because I hadnt been able to eat all day. Tammy was there waiting for me when I got home and she had some liquor there for me. I couldnt take the pain anymore so I drank til I couldnt stand. 5 ( Read more... )

I figure since I havent updated in so long no one will think to check this so i can rant in peace ( Read more... )

I am now a high white belt! WOOT! I love Tae Kwon Do! Here are some pictures

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