slowly severing the ties that have held me down for so long, i feel this chronicle of my disastrous life so far should be ended as well. its true, i dont really care anymore. i dont like what this town has made me. i say, on this 4th of july, the rain outside matching my mood: america can burn. i will celebrate bastille day instead. i will leave ( Read more... )

grasping with fingernails as they tear thru your skin
leaving no signs of pain, no wounds to mend
no, i dont understand how they forget
and some will just pass us by and take what they can get
and no, i dont understand how weightless they must be
without feelingmom bought me a laptop; i am excited, because i have finally convinced them to get me ( Read more... )

im sorry, but i just dont see the point anymore. (its hard for me to face my own reflection, and the disappointment twisting pretty features, what a fucking waste ( Read more... )

purchased my ticket today. so im leaving. we decided to make the return date in december, in case ginn cant come see me during winter break. my family may not be religious, but tradition is still valued ( Read more... )

my mom hacked into my email account. i dont care if shes concerned about me or doesnt trust me to take care of all this stuff on my own, but thats just going too far. she already smothers me far too much, with her obsessive calling and her big nose all up in my business. the interrogations and nagging and guilt trips, its driving me insane. i dont ( Read more... )

i thought that i would let you go without a fight
i thought that i was in control; i dont know why
i couldnt wait for you to answer me
it was easier to read between the lines
and if id have seen you coming after me
id have never gone away >(puracane ( Read more... )

gah. im waiting for my passport to arrive with teeth clenched. one great disadvantage to living on the mt that you probly didnt think of; the mail service. we have this lazy bitch delivery person who neglects to distribute our mail in an expediary fashion. it makes me really angry because i used to serve that fat bitch lunch at the hotel and she ( Read more... )

1) How old do you wish you were ( Read more... )

one year ago, you and i skipped work to spend the day together. we drove to the blood bank and i thought it was so sweet that we were sharing ourselves with the world, i felt like i had changed you for the better. we bought some beers and went home to watch tv and smoke out. we had sex on the couch and then i went into the front room to get the cat ( Read more... )

going to the dentist today. im supposed to get most of my fillings done before i go off to europe. but it sucks because i have nowhere to kick it between my appointment and work tonight. dad and i got in a huge fight about it, and i know that its selfish of me, the reason the house is sold is so i can go away, but i never asked to live on this ( Read more... )