wow. been a long fucking time. long could be understating it actually. i almost forgot i had a freakin live journal. but whatev. i can say i'm going to keep this short, but if you know me...the odds of it not being verbose and actually getting to a good substantial point are slim to none. so much has changed. god, i mean the last time i wrote i ( Read more... )

i'm so deleriously happy...but yet torn ( Read more... )

so, things..are looking up... in so many words i guess...i mean obviously nothing is "good" so to say...but i'm hoping maybe, just maybe it could get there. so i actually sat and thought last night...my happiest times in the past few years of my life are always around this time of year...maybe that's what it is...i don't know, maybe i'm just ( Read more... )

so yeah men...all time level...i was violated beyond a point that i ever thought i could be... yeah i mean granted i'm usually an outlandishly ridiculous loud obnoxious outspoken bitch....but when advances are made at me that i can't handle...i freeze..i tense up and like go into shock...some guy...some really actually really good looking guy at ( Read more... )

i'm truly at my breaking point...idk what the fuck to think anymore...what am i honestly supposed to think? i...i don't honestly know...i'm speechless...how often does that fuckin happen?...i'm good at djing for a reason...cuz i'm never without words...but congratulations Todd Stone...you have officially rendered me speechless. i don't know what to ( Read more... )

so yeah...here...in Maine...it's weird...but strangely not...Kyle and i had a blast on the way up...felt like 2-3 hrs tops...good times...i miss caitlin...weird..i mean i say it...likely jokingly..but i do..i'm used to seeing her everyday...wow...i sound like a lesbian...but uh...yeah Todd is...yeah...i was happy b4...now of course even happier... ( Read more... )

so...i guess when those nights happen, which they tend to...i can't help but be a fuckin doofus and sit and think...i mean there truly isn't much for me to be negative about at this exact moment...short of dwelling on past events...i mean, i miss twitch like hell...fuck all of you "he was just a bunny" motherfuckers...he was my baby..and as you can ( Read more... )

sooo this is going to be a huge page of nothing for a bit...gimme some effing time mang ( Read more... )