yesterday I passed out in school and now my head hruts I get my test resutls back so thats sweet. Idk I'm just tired and I want some pot. I miss my rory baby and I hope I get to see him valintiens day :) it will be sweet. As for a jerry as a srummer goes I doubt hes gunna meet up to waht I want. Its nothing aggest jerry...again its the ( Read more... )

yeah friday kicked ass I didn't go to school and sleepted in untill 3. Steve called and cancled practice and I got really pissed. So daddys comes home and stuff and I only get to talk to rory for like 5 mins witch pissed me off. So my dad and I go to guitar center and I come home and a bunch of my close friends and family where over for a ( Read more... )

yeah I got a band together its awesome. We are writing songs now and its all starting to take place and i'm excited and wow. Idk what to say... I had an awesme time with rory last week end. I love him so much, hes much sunshine. :) haha. Seriously though i'd do almost anything to be with him. I am so in love with him.

ah rory called me cuz he read my journal......

I'm so stresssssssed

but happy cuz rory usualy always makes me smile

yeah today was pointless, I was so pissed that I didn't get to talk to rory as much as I wanted to...well not pissed just disipointed cuz I just havn't talked to him ALL DAY and then I get 15 mintues to talk to him.....I'm fuckin retarted that I let that get to me though. Anthony called....he finly told me why he broke up with me...was the most ( Read more... )

well It turns out that I might have cycsts....and i am in the most pain I ever been in my life. They had to help me down to the office...but all my absence are excued. I have to study so much for finals...AH I hate missing so much and i hate the feeling that I could be doin better then I already am. I try so hard, I hate having proublem...i'm ( Read more... )

I really wanted to go to school today so I could study for finals. I turns out I can have endemindeotious or something or an infection...I won't know untill feb. But i'm glad I know. In the mean time the er gave me pain meds for my stomic and I can only have clear liquids today. Tomarrow I GET TO EAT SOUPS...then i;m on that untill I am better ( Read more... )

yeah....I havn't updated in a wihle. me and my dad aggreed on what I been talkin about all along....he was just confused because I used the word death to discribe it. I wonder if he really though I wanted to scream instead of sing...I love to sing

any ways

I love rory ...hes so perfect.....

yeah.....fuck my self. I feel like an asshole....

fuck u to

I don't care

but...I also feel a bit better then I did a few days ago. I'm just gunna let my cuts heal and then ask for help...unless I need it sooner..cuz well I don't wanna go to the hostipol. Umm...yeah fuck my self

yeah i flipped out on my self....I still am but i'm sorta okay now..I miss my rory. Krissy, Seth, Lee and Pyro came over...we jammed and had fun. I'm pissed cuz I'm reatred and don't know how to fix a snare drum...its not sounding how i want it to. I hope it snows 2 feet so I don't have to go the hellt hey call school. only 3 more years left...