this has been such a hard week. It will continue to be hard.... and all I can do is hold my breath and try not to kill myself. I'm taking a 4 day weekend at the end, knowing that I fucking deserve....well so much more...

Fingers crossed I hear good news from dots.

I Can't wait for the awful to be OVER!!!! WAH!!!!!!!!!!

Kanada put into perspective for me when she said "just think of where you were this time last year". Compared to last year I have a job with a future, my own place, my own car, a wonderful boyfriend, and optimism. Also, compared to last year I have rent, a car payment, and student loans, so I guess its a perspective thing.

Didja ever have one of those anxiety dreams? The kind that takes all the anxiety you have in your life and crunches it down into 20 min where you cant breathe ( Read more... )

I am one big anxiety attack lately. I don't know why and i can't control it. One tiny little thing will trigger an irrational fear and all of a sudden I can't breathe. It comes and goes. I have all this anxiety about the most irrational things. gaahhhhh

The first sentence of the first entry of every month ( Read more... )

The Mayor: maybe diffeernt types of lows ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night that I was pregnant. I didn't find out til just recently, but I looked like I was ready to pop. It disturbed ms to no end, but no one seemed to care ( Read more... )

i keep waiting for it to be ok for me to relax. one day i'll be able to relax.

its time for another escape.

So, my head is prolly going to explode any minute. In the same month i've signed a year lease on an apartment, signed a six year loan on a car, (which also means i'm having to learn stick shift, gah), and my school loans are coming due. I've gone over and over and over my budget, and it should all work out just fine. its just that it never works ( Read more... )

horrible dream ( Read more... )