Such an epic fail... I am not good at this whole life thing. I need to change that. I just feel so lonely... I just couldn't take the emotional abuse from a brat anymore. Who knew I could be so violent. It was like pulling teeth getting you to go out anywhere. fuck head. this is what my life has come to. i feel a "settling" coming on soon ( Read more... )

I want a beautiful musician to sing me to sleep every night. He needs soft eyes, a stubborn attitude, a scruffy beard, and an insatiable appetite for me. He was all of those... except the last one. God how did I miss that boat?
I guess karma is a bitch.

All these people that I have grown up with and come to know and love... are all getting engaged and married and pregnant... and shit ( Read more... )

70% of the time, I truly live for being the affection of some guy.... Sometimes, I like to give in to that affection.... I am happy when I am wanted... Yes. That makes me want to live. The person I marry... if I ever get married... I will always want him to want me... and I will want to live for him.. and I will want him. That will be perfect ( Read more... )

I have figured it out. I just sleep better when I have a warm body next to me. they dont even have to pay attention to me.

So you change your status on fucking facebook and your friends APPLAUD the fact that you got rid of me..... Wow. They don't even know me nor do they know the situation ( Read more... )

You know, It's one thing when you're talking to some body and they calmly state something to effect of, "Man, that is something I do." in a very sweet and relating way. It's something completely different when they arrogantly state something to the effect of, "My GOD, you do the SAME EXACT thing... it kills me how much you're like ME ( Read more... )

How can you possibly justify getting upset and mean to me when you were the one caught in a lie!? Who the fuck do you think you are. And yet you call ME childish.
Grow up you fucking pussy.

I want that passion in my love. I don't care how fucking cliche it is. I want THAT. Otherwise I'm just settling. That's all ( Read more... )

It's been more than a couple years since we have last met. I don't have any idea how you're going to receive me. Are you going to have that beautiful loving look in those eyes and hug me and smell my neck.... Are you going to give me a quick hug and a happy side glance? I don't know how to think. I know I shouldn't be thinking at all because ( Read more... )