So Sean and I went to Columbia to see this guy we have both known for a while. He was good friends with Sean in high school, and I have known him since I was 13 (we went to 8th grade prom together!) Anyway, I found myself being able to talk to him like ACTUALLY talk to him. I didn't have to hide my thoughts/feelings and it was just so natural. He ( Read more... )

Taking adderall and feeling like the world is going to explode, then drinking beer to fill the gap of coming down from amphetamines. Why do I still do this to myself? Worse misery ever. Stupid dopamine.

I will be seeing my mother for the first time in three years in about an hour. Is it strange that I feel anxious about seeing my own mother? I just feel like the last time I saw her, I was in such a different place in my life, such a different person. I guess I am also afraid of having to deal with my sister and any drama that ensues ( Read more... )

It was pretty awkward, of course. Once we all got drunk, I had a pretty good time, though I kept getting left out of things and feeling like an outcast. I met a pretty awesome chick there that I hung out with almost the whole night. Of course, as usual, I gravitated towards someone I don't know...made friends with them, then never hear from them ( Read more... )

It's funny that I still capitalize certain words in titles like I was taught to in school ( Read more... )

When I will just suck it up and start being responsible. I got arrested a week ago for "careless" driving, yeah, I had 2 beers, and apparently that was enough for me to stupidly admit to a cop for them to take me to jail. I had lost my glasses and couldn't see shit. THAT is why I ran the red light, not because of the two beers I had an hour prior ( Read more... )

So I realized that 4 different people have blocked me on facebook, one of them being my ex, which is understandable. I don't know why. I don't feel as if I had been a nuisance to those people. Maybe I am oblivious to that as well? I skipped work today because I couldn't find my car key. But I will be going tomorrow, reluctantly, because I am ( Read more... )

Injuring myself: oh, what sweet relief

And I decided to commit. I mean really commit myself to Jonathan, he tells me two days later he is moving to california with this sociopath (now ex friend of mine). But he is coming back eventually even though he bought a one way ticket and went over there with $400 and nowhere to stay. I burned a lot of bridges because of my decision to be with ( Read more... )

especially online jobs, where they do those questionnaires that take like 30 minutes, and I always feel like I have to lie on them. Questions such as, "You are able to control your emotions," or "You enjoy working with people." Do you disagree or agree ( Read more... )