it's 7:30 and im wrapped up in a blanket and nothing else. the mother & i got into a fight that lasted to approx. 12 am last night. she knows everything now. two girls insist on still talking about me. i'm hideous apprantly and cake on the eyeliner. one of them seems to think i'm trying to be " hot ", but i'm trying to be me. and me & the ex went ( Read more... )

so it's 8 am and today is school. gah. new school, again. i hardly know anybody. i'm not a big fan of school, cause of the sitting for a gazillion hours. but i'm taking a lot of art classes this year and law... so hopefully i'll like it more. arg, i have to walk 30 mins to school though. i probably should get started on that right now, but alas, i ( Read more... )

so life's not so great right now. i can't stand my mother, our relationship has just gone downhill ever since me and kevin broke up. regardless of how much i love her, there's this huge wall between us now and i don't think it'll ever get better. i'd love to move out, but where would i go? im only 16 and i dont want to live with my dad, so that ( Read more... )

so yesturday, guess who called me? TOM! i was out at mat's though and my mom didn't tell me he called. i don't think she wanted to. but i found out cause he had the nerve to email me too. asking why i'm saying stuff about erica. i don't even know why anymore. i hate the fact that tom or anythign to do with tom brings out the worst in me. so it's ( Read more... )

i'm so fucking screwed. i saw mat today, and i'm so in love with that kid. i dunno if we're going out or what we're doing. all i know is that what i feel for him exceeds what i ever felt for tom by so fucking much. so basically, i'm screwed. i saw tom biking with jeremy while driving to see mat. i was anrgy for 2 secs? and then all i culd think ( Read more... )

so today sucksish. mat doesn't seem to be coming home so i don't know if i'll see him and lyssa's not home or not picking up her phone. i'm not allowed to sleepover at her house anymore. i understand why her mom would say that, but still, it sucks.  i dunno, this weeks sucked. maybe cause mat's gone...

~ allie

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it's 10:42 am and i got back from lyssa's at 10ish. she's in deep shit cause we sneaked out and as we were walking back towards her house her mom comes running out. reminds me of when i ran away... now im sad. nothing's ever good enough to make me truly happy cept from lyssa and mat. i dunno why the fuck i can't be happy, and i dunno why i keep ( Read more... )

Do you worry that you're not liked
How long till you break
You're happy cause you smile
But how much can you fake
An ordinary boy, an ordinary name
But ordinary's just not good enough today

~ Superman's Dead // Our Lady Peace ~

And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along

~ 4 am // Our Lady Peace ~

Everyone you meet today is just so fucking ( Read more... )