I'm not what you want
Trudging through the door
And into the place I dread
All I see is consuming darkness
Take me away
I don't want to see
What I've become
The pain comes in waves
Clouds my vision
I'm not dead yet
So why do you cover me with dirt
Why do I try
Sorry for being the sad little girl
It's all you want me to be

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Well, today was eventful. And tomorrow will be even better. I get to have blood drawn to see how my thyroid is doing. Yipee. I have to wake up at 7. Argh. And I can't eat until afterwards. I'm gonna go now.....

So today I am heading home tonight from being at Menace's house since Friday. I am sure he is tired of me after spendin that long with me. My family is being really nice to me, and it is scaring me. My brother is even being really cool to me. I can't wait to move out of this shithole state. Maryland sucks ass. I want to be anywhere but here. I'm ( Read more... )

Last night was fucking awesome. I had somany pics taken of me. And I got great pics with Menace, Gerrold, and Angel. Menace looked so fucking hot, I love him in makeup. And Larry and Charlie loved me and told me to come back really soon. I wanna be a professional model now, that would be so sweet. Today is my boyfriend's birthday, he is ( Read more... )

Hmmm......people suck. I mean, I would be so much happier to live by myself in the woods with no one around to bother me. With maybe the handful of people I would select to come with me. Other than that I would bomb the whole fucking world. I can't stand the way we live. I can't stand what the human race has become. A race of filth and greed and ( Read more... )

Well isn't that some shit? I am home alone and I am bored out of my fucking mind. And before my mother left shes like oh and by the way and she tells me all this housework that she wants me to do. I wanted to say aren't you a home maker? So go and make the home! I am so glad I am going to Menace's tomorrow. I can't take one more day in this house ( Read more... )

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